[multichapter] baby blue part 3 chapter 3
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thesecretdoorPairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1596
Disclaimer: All people mentioned belong only to themselves...aside from JunDa who clearly belong to each other.
Summary: In the fairy tales they fall in love and live happily ever after...but this isn't a fairy tale. How are two people, madly in love, supposed to stay away from each other?
November 28th 2012
Ueda had felt marginally better over the last few weeks, it had now been around 6 weeks since their break-up, and while the pain was still raw he found he was at least having more success controlling his emotions. He no longer felt like crying just being in the same room as Taguchi, and he found he was sleeping a little better now he didn’t spend half the night crying either.
It wasn’t that he didn’t care anymore, if anything he cared more, it felt worse as it began to sink in, as he spent more time without Taguchi. Maybe it was just that he his body had grown tired of constantly expressing his sadness, or maybe it was just the extra work they’d had lately. Either way, he was pleased, at least, that he could trust himself not to break down in front of the other man.
“Hey, Taguchi” he said anxiously once he had a few moments alone with the man. “We’re not working tomorrow right?” Taguchi just nodded in agreement “Are you...did you...have plans...with it being your birthday and everything?”
Taguchi’s eyes widened slightly “Not in particular, I’m seeing my mom tonight, so tomorrow I was just going to...well I didn’t really have plans yet.”
Ueda smiled “I just wondered...if you know, you were comfortable with it...if it wouldn’t be weird between us...if you maybe wanted to go out, or something...”
His heart sped up at the genuine smile that lit up Taguchi’s features “Yeah, I’d like that...”
He smiled nervously “Just as friends of course...but still, you gave me such a wonderful birthday, that I was thinking...there was somewhere I wanted to take you too...if you wanted...”
Taguchi nodded eagerly “I would love to...”
“And tomorrow is ok? A different day would be fine...”
“No tomorrow would be great, there’s nobody I’d rather spend my birthday with” there was a moment of awkwardness between them “I didn’t mean it like...like how we were, just, I still want to be good friends with you...”
Ueda nodded. “Ok then...tomorrow...I’ll pick you up, say 11am?” Taguchi nodded in agreement and then Ueda left for the day.
He’d thought often about what Taguchi had done for him for his birthday, despite it being the trigger that started their break-up, it was also one of the most incredible times of his life. Everything had been perfect, from the activities to the conversation, even getting drunk and having to take care of Taguchi. And the sex had been incredible too, from the romantic setting of the waterfall, so reminiscent of that dream he’d had so long ago, to the perfect evening with the picnic and the sunset, making love in the open air in their own little bubble, cut off from life itself almost.
He knew that taking Taguchi away on vacation wouldn’t be a good idea, but he hoped at least they had come far enough to be able to spend a few hours of the day in each other’s company, and he desperately wanted to do something for Taguchi’s birthday, as a thank you as much as a celebration of Taguchi’s birth.
November 29th 2012
He picked Taguchi up as promised at 11am sharp. He’d spent a while over the past weeks thinking of something he could do that would be special but not too romantic, and finally, only a few days before he’d found it. It was the reminder of their vacation that gave him the inspiration.
“So where are we going?” Taguchi asked brightly as he climbed into the passenger seat.
“I thought...maybe we could go to the aquarium?” he replied tentatively as he drove away. “You know, see some turtles and sharks...since we didn’t see them before”
Taguchi nodded happily “That would be perfect, thank you.”
Ueda was surprised at how easy it was still to be around Taguchi, his light humour, the bright smile that he found unbearably contagious. They wandered around all of the exhibits, and Taguchi enthusiastically talked about the animals he liked seeing, and made terrible puns on many of their names. They even managed to catch the dolphin and seal shows, though the seal show was slightly ruined by some girls a few rows below them, turning and pointing and giggling the whole way through. They were then followed by said girls for at least 20 minutes, until they managed to lose them in one of the darker exhibits.
It felt natural, being together like that, like breathing, even when Taguchi would absent-mindedly grab his hand to lead him to a particularly interesting display, or sneak an arm behind his back in the busier exhibits to keep him from getting knocked aside. It was the little moments like that, that had Ueda’s heart skipping beats, smiling shyly at the other man, and then laughing lightly at his confusion.
When they’d finally seen all that there was to see, and Ueda suspected that in the course of trying to drag out the time together as long as possible they actually had seen everything there was in the building, they returned to Ueda’s car.
“Do you...um...do you want to get something to eat?” Ueda asked a little shyly once they were buckled up and ready to go.
“I’d like that” Taguchi answered, placing his hand softly over Ueda’s, which he now realised was fidgeting with the gearstick. “You don’t need to be so nervous...I feel the same way...it’s strange with the feelings still being so strong...”
Ueda nodded and tried to change the subject quickly, Taguchi’s words hitting him deeply. “Where do you want to go? You can have whatever you like...”
“I want Takoyaki...” he smiled “It makes me happy to see you eating it, I like it...”
Ueda laughed a little but nodded, “The usual place then?” and he set off in the direction of his favourite restaurant for Takoyaki, they’d been there together a few times before, back when they were together when Taguchi didn’t want to cook.
It was a fairly quiet restaurant so they ate in peace, with Taguchi recounting eagerly about the animals they’d seen. Then they set off back home, Ueda stopping momentarily at a combini on the way to buy a birthday cake.
“You didn’t need to get me a cake...” Taguchi said, his voice full of appreciation.
“But it’s your birthday, you need to have cake...” Ueda replied matter-of-factly.
“Thank you Uepi...” Taguchi said, before remaining silent in thought until they reached his apartment.
Ueda parked in the parking lot around the back beside Taguchi’s mini and switched off the engine. “Thank you, for going out with me...” he said feeling lame.
“Thank you for taking me” Taguchi replied. And then after a moments silence he continued “I mean it, today has been incredible...I was worried that after we...that we wouldn’t be able to have that anymore, that it’d be too weird...”
“I was worried about that too” Ueda admitted “It was hard...I think it will be for a while, until I manage to get over you, but I want us to keep trying...I don’t want to stop spending time with you...”
Taguchi’s head nodded slowly “Do you think you will? Get over me I mean?”
He inhaled deeply “I don’t know...I hope so, I mean that’s kind of the point right?”
There was another moment silence and then out of nowhere Taguchi placed a hand on his cheek, pulling him round to face him just in time for their lips to meet. He melted immediately into it, his lips molding themselves against Taguchi’s, following their gentle rhythm until, reluctantly, Taguchi pulled away.
“Do you...want to come inside?” Taguchi asked innocently, but Ueda was apprehensive, he knew what the question really asked, and yes he wanted it, but he knew he couldn’t have it. All of that talk about being responsible and just being friends.
He decided it best not to torture himself with the possibility. “I can’t...” and he turned away, finding his focus.
He could hear the bitter smile in Taguchi’s voice “You buy me a cake and then send me home alone to light the candles myself?”
He looked back up and saw the sadness in Taguchi’s face, he knew it wasn’t about the cake, but all the same he felt he should at least escort him inside and light the damn candles for him. “I’ll come in...for the cake...but not for anything else ok?” and he tried a stern look, but it was ruined by the gratitude in Taguchi’s eyes.
He let Taguchi lead the way inside, feeling something akin to nostalgia as he entered the apartment that only a few weeks ago had been like a second home to him. Taguchi brought out candles and a lighter while Ueda headed straight for the kotatsu with the cake. They switched out the main lights, leaving only the floor lamp casting a dull glow over the room, together they placed 27 candles in the cake and Ueda lit them. They sat for a few moments, watching the dancing flames and then when Taguchi’s eyes found his, Ueda whispered “Make a wish”.
Taguchi’s eyes closed slowly and after a few seconds he leaned forward, blowing slowly over the flames until they were all extinguished. When his eyes slid back up to Ueda’s, the intensity in them sent a shiver down Ueda’s back. He couldn’t look away, the longing and desperation in Taguchi’s face mirrored that in his own mind. “Junno...” he whispered.
“Tatsuya...please...” Taguchi replied, just as quietly, voice begging “You know what I wished for...”
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Ok...so slightly less angst right? But uh-oh >_< where is this heading? :P
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Date: 2012-07-17 10:36 am (UTC)But aw...I'm really glad they did go out for Junno's birthday. He really deserves it. And the trip to the aquarium and everything nearly left me thinking as if they were starting over again, like with proper dates and stuff >.<
And the cake! And wishes! T.T I really really do wonder where this'll lead them...lol you know what I'm hoping for though >w<
'“Tatsuya...please...” Taguchi replied, just as quietly, voice begging “You know what I wished for...”'
^ Seriously is as if I can see and hear Junno say this and he really looks so sad and *sniffles* Should I prepare for more angst next chapter?? D=
Hehe anyway thanks for the update and I'll be waiting for the next as usual~ >w< *huggles*
PS: And I haven't forgotten your bday (although I had to figure it out through lyan's fic *fails*) I'm nearly done with your belated bday fic so i hope you like it~ ^o^/
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Date: 2012-07-17 10:48 am (UTC):D It is kind of like a date right...but they're trying so hard to just be friends >_< aahhh, but the wish...well I think you can probably guess what it is that he wants...and could Uepi refuse him? on his birthday? :P You'll just have to wait and see!!
There will be a little angst, not quite as much as the previous chapters...but there is major angst somewhere on the horizon >_< sorry
You're writing something for me? That's sooo sweet :D I'm looking forward to it :D Actually, you're not the first person to say they found out through someone else *blush* I must have forgotten to mention it to people...it's one of those things I'm always a little embarrassed to mention though *blush* maybe I'll have to figure out how to let LJ know what my bday is for next time :S
Anyways thank you for your comment Pan-chan :D *huggles*
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Date: 2012-07-17 10:41 am (UTC)It's so sweet how they spend his birthday trying to pretend it's not a date. And the kiss in the car and the cake and the wish! So heratbreakingly desperate! But they know it's be a mistake, it would make their efforts over the past weeks go to waste! :/
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Date: 2012-07-17 10:51 am (UTC)Haha, yeah it really is like a date >_<
That wish...hmm these things are tricky right? They want each other so badly, but as you pointed out, they've been trying so hard to stay away from each other, it would only hurt them to give in to it... *evil grin*
Thank you so much for your lovely comment :D
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Date: 2012-07-17 11:10 am (UTC)Junno's wish shows that he isn't coping with the situation nearly as good as he likes to pretend. Now it's Tatchan's place to be strong, but that's hard, ne? Knowing how much you love to torture them I can see his resistance crumble! XD
Reading the comment above I saw recently was your birthday? You should put it in the Basic Infos on your profile! ^^
And since I wanted to ask you since you changed to that banner: where's the KoDa pic from? :3
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Date: 2012-07-17 11:23 am (UTC)Ahh, I fixed it now, when I looked on my profile options thing, I'd put in my birthday, but then messed up with the display it options so it didn't show it.
I'm not sure about the KoDa pic, it was one of my awesome graphics maker's pictures that she used, I'll ask her if she knows where it's from next time I'm speaking to her (probably some point today) :) so I'll let you know!
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Date: 2012-07-18 09:23 am (UTC)Hmmh, I still can't see it...
That pic immediately caught my eye when you changed the banner, because Koki looks too cute in there! ^^
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Date: 2012-07-18 11:53 am (UTC)Hmm, I tried again (and edited my profile...I apparently didn't write anything before :S ) can you see it now?
Oooh, and the KoDa pic is from WINK UP 2012.01, she also gave me a link to download the file if you need it: http://www.mediafire.com/?6cwo6io7k571pg6
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Date: 2012-07-18 12:02 pm (UTC)Yes, now I can see it. And it was reall recently (I thought maybe at the beginning of the month)! oO Happy belated birthday! :)
Kyaaah, thank you so much! I love the whole shoot! It's cute how Tatchan hides his bald head! XD
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Date: 2012-07-17 11:34 am (UTC)I'm glad the angst didn't last too long. XD
But they're still hurting a bit..guess they can't get rid of their feelings easily..
I love Tatchan trying to make things less awkward by suggesting they go out "as friends" on Junno's birthday.
Though Junno seemed to forget sometimes that they're "just friends" with the holding of Ueda's hand and sneaking an arm on Ueda's back..which made me giggly all over!
There's still hope for JunDa!!! Because Junno's birthday wish will come true!!! XP
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Date: 2012-07-18 11:57 am (UTC)But yeah, things are still pretty difficult for them, and probably will be for a while *sigh* It seems they just naturally fall into the boyfriends role when they are together!
Lol, the hand on the back thing had to be included after seeing him do that on the NMP DVD (it was when they went to one of the other countries but I can't remember which :S)
Hehe, and yes that wish... ;)
Thank you for reading, and for your comment!
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Date: 2012-07-17 12:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-07-18 11:59 am (UTC)Hhhmm, it does seem like if they try to keep staying away from each other...something bad will happen right ;) but you'll just have to wait and see where it will go *is excited and wants to hurry up and post it all*
:D I'm really happy I can inspire you so much :D I'll be looking forward to seeing what you come up with :D Also, I added you :S For some reason I didn't have you added back :S
Thank you for reading and commenting!!
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Date: 2012-07-18 01:31 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-07-17 12:51 pm (UTC)I didn't expect that they went out for Junno's birthday :D
Looking forward to the next chapter... thank you for sharing :D
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Date: 2012-07-18 12:05 pm (UTC)And yes...where this is headed :D
Thank you for reading :D The next chapter will be up at the weekend :)
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Date: 2012-07-17 01:51 pm (UTC)thanks for the update
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Date: 2012-07-18 12:07 pm (UTC)Don't worry - the next chapter will pick right back up where this left off ;)
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Date: 2012-07-17 01:58 pm (UTC)Oh btw, excellent AGAIN. You kill me girl LOL
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Date: 2012-07-18 12:12 pm (UTC)Thank you for reading too :D next chapter will be up at the weekend :D
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Date: 2012-07-18 12:19 pm (UTC)It would be really bad for them to go through with it right? It would make things really hard on them again...but could Uepi really turn Junno down, on his birthday? ;) You'll just have to wait and see :P
Thank you for reading dear :)
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Date: 2012-07-17 05:04 pm (UTC)You just reduced me to a flailing fangirl D: But I'm worried at where this relationship is heading again. I can't imagine the two of them going through the painful process of breaking up again! I find my tissue box suspiciously close whenever I click on your update nowadays :O
Taguchi would absent-mindedly grab his hand to lead him to a particularly interesting display, or sneak an arm behind his back in the busier exhibits to keep him from getting knocked aside.
It's the little actions that speaks volumes!!!
Thank you for this fluffy update after chapters of angst *sniffles*
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Date: 2012-07-18 12:24 pm (UTC)Aww, I'm sorry for all the angst, there is some more on the way though...so maybe don't put those tissues too far out of reach :(
And the hand on the back image - I had to include that >_< the gif from the nmp dvd was just sooo cute that I had to have it in here somewhere :D
Thank you for reading XD
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Date: 2012-07-18 04:10 am (UTC)lurve, lurve the hesitance and confusion of these two...it makes their love so much sweeter or more bittersweet...which in turn makes us root for them more ---I just hope that this will end happily ever after, right...right...RIGHT???
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Date: 2012-07-18 12:26 pm (UTC)I'm glad you're liking the story, and I totally adore bittersweet love, so I just had to write it XD
There's still lots, lots, lots more to write yet...but somewhere along there will be a few happy endings :P
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Date: 2012-07-29 02:03 pm (UTC)But to me it all means or goes to show that they really can't forget each other.. what they had and shared and this is just another way (whether they know it or not) to still hold on~
Not that I'm complaining... I love it to bits... their love for each other is still strong... and I think they are strong too... having to deal with what they are dealing with~
about the wish...
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Date: 2012-07-31 07:04 am (UTC)