[multichapter] baby blue part 3 chapter 4

[thesecretdoor]

Title: Baby Blue: Part 3: Chapter 4
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 1467
Disclaimer: All people mentioned belong only to themselves...aside from JunDa who clearly belong to each other.
Summary: In the fairy tales they fall in love and live happily ever after...but this isn't a fairy tale. How are two people, madly in love, supposed to stay away from each other?

November 29^th 2012

“Junno...” he whispered again, torn.

“I know...I know we can’t be together...but just for tonight...just for my birthday, please...Tatsuya please...just for tonight be mine again...”

All resolve faded as Taguchi’s eyes, still black pools of desire, threatened to overflow. He stood slowly, shakily and walked around the kotatsu, he held his hand out to help Taguchi up, and as soon as they were standing he slid his arms shyly around Taguchi’s waist as he pressed their lips gently together.

He could feel his body trembling with need, desperation to feel the younger man pressed against him again, taste the sweetness inside his mouth, let his warmth wash over him and dance with him in that delicate rhythm he’d once taken for granted.

He pulled away slowly, taking Taguchi’s hand in his own and with a look that said more than words he turned to lead him to the bedroom. Once inside he closed the door and then went over to close the curtains and peel back the covers before holding a hand out for Taguchi.

There, standing beside the bed they kissed again, slow and sweet, but deeper with the anticipation of what was to come. There was moisture on his cheek, but he couldn’t say if was from his own eyes or Taguchi’s, it could have been either or both if their ragged breath was anything to go by.

He felt his control ebbing and so he pulled his mouth from Taguchi’s, looking up into the gentle, longing eyes, as his hands moved to peel the clothing from their bodies.

They were both hard already, though he hadn’t noticed when it had happened, and he smiled slightly at the way Taguchi’s stomach dipped when he held out his hand to touch the hard flesh with his finger tips.

Taguchi let out a soft, high-pitched whimper, and though he’d missed that sound terribly, it wasn’t what he wanted for tonight.

“Lay down” he whispered into Taguchi’s collarbone as  he placed a chaste kiss there, and Taguchi complied, moving to the middle of the bed and laying on his back, legs spread a little. Ueda moved to lay between them, hovering over Taguchi’s body as he connected their mouths once more before slowly lowering his body to feel their flesh connect as well.

Taguchi pulled away harshly from the kiss as their arousals connected, the groan that left his lips cutting sharply through the quiet of the room. The groan was repeated as Ueda moved his hips gently, kissing his way down Taguchi’s throat, feeling the vibrations the next groan caused under his lips.

He didn’t drag it out, he needed Taguchi and he could see that the other man needed him just as desperately, so he leaned over, reaching into the drawer beside the bed for the lube he knew was there.

He coated his fingers a little slower than necessary, biding his time in order to gather his self-control, though the sight in front of him did nothing to help.  Taguchi’s eyes remained locked on his while he lay sprawled out, arms out and hands clutching at the covers, legs spread and hips angled up in anticipation. Ueda thought he’d never seen anything so arousing, especially with the way the younger mans chest dipped low with each slow deep breath, and the way the his hard cock twitched, begging to be stimulated.

He couldn’t wait much longer and so he moved his hand lower, rubbing gently at the ring of muscle, watching Taguchi’s face, the way it crumpled in pleasure, eyes clenching shut and teeth biting into his lower lip. Taguchi let out a strained groan when Ueda finally slipped the finger inside, and then a harsh gasp as he repeated the action a few times. He removed his finger then, applying a little more lube, and sliding in two fingers at once. He moved them slowly in and out before seeking out the soft bump that would set Taguchi’s body alight, still, he was surprised when he finally slid over it, to feel hard contractions around his fingers accompanying a cut off moan as Taguchi’s whole body jerked.

“I’m sorry” Taguchi whispered, looking away to the side, cheeks flushing dark as he moved his hand self-consciously to hide the white streaks across his stomach.

Ueda slipped his fingers out and moved up to kiss Taguchi’s lips softly. “It’s ok.”

“I didn’t know...” Taguchi replied embarrassed “It just happened...”

Ueda couldn’t help smiling, the sweet innocence of the younger man’s face making his chest feel warm “Don’t worry about it...” and he kissed the soft lips again, this time receiving a slight response.

“I still want to...” Taguchi started, but Ueda cut him off with another kiss.

“You don’t need to...”

Taguchi shook his head furiously “Please, I do...it’s not even about that, I just want to be as close to you as possible...”

Ueda nodded, he could understand that, towards the end of their relationship, before that even he suspected, sex hadn’t been about sex anymore, it was about the connection, about feeling each other, having each other completely. He nodded again slower “Don’t let me hurt you...”

“As long as you’re here with me...nothing can hurt me.”

His chest felt too tight, his throat thick with emotion and so he pressed his lips hard against Taguchi’s, as though that might quell the feelings rising up in him.  They kissed slowly for a few more minutes, until Taguchi’s hand gently took hold of his, nudging it back down between his legs.

He finished his preparation slowly, allowing Taguchi’s body to grow accustomed to the pleasure again before finally giving in and slipping inside him. He couldn’t remember anything feeling so incredible, so perfectly sweet and pure as they rocked together, pace and rhythm matching so seamlessly and their minds so finely attuned to each other’s needs.

He kept his lips in motion with Taguchi’s as much as possible through their deep pants and soft moans, loving the way Taguchi’s hand clung desperately to his body, one urging his hips on while the other knotted roughly into his hair.

He felt more than heard it when Taguchi tipped over the edge for the second time that night, the way his fingers tensed against his skin while his whole body shook with the convulsions even as the tight rings of muscle surrounding him sucked his own orgasm from him, making him see stars.

He held the connection for as long as possible, but when it started to ache he pulled back, slipping out of the younger man’s body, and falling to the bed beside him, spent.

November 30^th 2012

When he awoke the next morning the bed was empty beside him, though the bathrobe he’d used to wear here was laid out across his feet. He got up and shrugged it on, drowning in its familiar smell, smelling more familiar scents as he left the bedroom and wandered along the hallway to the kitchen where Taguchi was cooking breakfast.

“You’re just in time” Taguchi beamed as he brought over a plate of eggs and toast “I was about to come and wake you”

“Thank you” he mumbled back, not quite able to be as happy about the situation as Taguchi seemed to be. And he took his plate over to the kotatsu where there were already some mugs of tea and a few slices of the birthday cake set on a separate plate. After a few minutes Taguchi joined him and they sat down together to eat. “Junno...about last night...”

Taguchi smiled, shaking his head “its ok, you don’t have to say anything about it.” There was silence for a few moments. “I’m sorry if I pressured you into doing it...but I really do appreciate it” he smiled bitterly “It would be a lie to say I haven’t been missing you like crazy, but yesterday...I think it was just what I needed to take the edge off...”

“Then...you’re ok?” Ueda asked, he couldn’t deny that in some primal way he’d needed it just as desperately, but he couldn’t understand Taguchi’s sunny outlook on it, for him, he felt worse now having given in.

“Of course” Taguchi beamed, “it was incredible...the whole day was just perfect and...” he tried to tone down the smile a bit “I’m sorry...I know that we can’t be together and so it’s kind of cruel to both of us to give in like that...but I don’t regret it...”

“I don’t regret it either...I just” he stopped to blink back the tears that were suddenly threatening behind his eyes “It’s just...harder...you know...”

“I know” Taguchi conceded. “I’m sorry baby” and he reached out to take Ueda’s hand, rubbing it soothingly for a few moments. “We’ll be more careful from now on”.

Chapter 3 | Chapter 5

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Sorry guys...there was really no way for Ueda to turn him down in that state :( There'll be a bit of a time skip to the next chapter, so I'll let you guys make up your own opinions on how they dealt with the after-effects of that night >_<

Comments

[racanai.livejournal.com]

I love this chapter so much! ♥ Although it's really heartbreaking! T-T But it's hard to resist the one you love and I'm happy it is like that for them! I'm mean, I know. It just seems it's a set back for them.
Soooo looking forward to the next chapter! =)

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

Thank you :D I'm glad you liked it, it is hard for them...and especially the way Junno was all pleading with him and stuff...Uepi really couldn't say no. Hhhmm, definitely seems like it could be a set back for them *evil cackle*

Thank you for reading :D

[krystal-32206.livejournal.com]

The next day after the amazing night was just...*deep sigh*
I should be getting used to this emotional rollercoaster between JunDa but you always never fail to surprise me..
Thanks for the update!

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

Aww, I'm sorry, but everything has a price right? After such a perfect night there had to be some downfall.

I'm really happy to hear that it's something of an emotional rollercoaster too! That's how I'd hoped it would be so it's a relief that it is coming across that way :D

Thank you for your comment ^__^

[pandanyan.livejournal.com]

Lol well you know I enjoyed the fact that JunDa did in the end sleep with each other (It would've been sad if they didn't really...I mean, it's Junno's birthday >.<)

But the after-effects were just...Junno being happy and all is just his way of covering it up right? I'm sure he feels worse and the fact that Ueda's nearly crying doesn't make things any better. I really want to see how they'll cope later on but I'm sure there's no way either of them are getting over one another...and it should be that way...right? Right?? D=

' “I’m sorry baby” and he reached out to take Ueda’s hand, rubbing it soothingly for a few moments.'

^ THE BABY THING!! T.T And that's when I got teary-eyed >.< It's going to be rough from now on isn't it >.< Oh well I'd better restock on tissues next time >w<

The smut was a nice way to take my mind off the angst though so again I'm really happy for that >w<

Anyway thanks for another lovely update as always~ *huggles*

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

I can't imagine how bad it would have been for Junno if Uepi had resisted and just gone home...or rather I did imagine that...and then decided that was even worse than this outcome! So I'm glad you agree with my decision :)

As for Junno...he's definitely happy that it happened, but not in the way that he's acting, it should be much more bittersweet right? I think it's just his way of trying to stay strong and not let Uepi see his weak side so much.

And about getting over each other...they certainly won't if they keep this up right? >_< but you'll just have to keep reading to see how well that works out for them :P

I think you should be ok on the tissue front for the next chapter...after that though...well, you'll see :P

Thank you for reading *squishes* next chapter won't be far away :)

[tat-fan-luv.livejournal.com]

I have been checking LJ once every day for this chapter. I forgot to yesterday thanks to me sleeping the day away (needed it I was beyond exhausted) and I looked at it today and HERE IT WAS Oh man the inevitable happened! I'd say that would be Junno's best present...not the sex not the outting not Uepi agreeing to do it but being able ot feel that connection again. Those two need each other. It's no longer want or desire I see in this story between those two it's need....And as for need I don't eed to be patient for the next chapter because I want to be patient lol because I know it will be worth the wait.

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

Aww, you're so sweet :) Mostly I tend to update on Tuesdays and Saturdays - more to help me get a bit of structure than anything else, so be sure to check on those days :)

This made me soo happy:

I'd say that would be Junno's best present...not the sex not the outting not Uepi agreeing to do it but being able ot feel that connection again. Those two need each other. It's no longer want or desire I see in this story between those two it's need....

Really this made my day, that's exactly how I feel about those two, and honestly I was a bit worried about putting in sex in case it came across as though they were just lusting after each other still. But you saying this has given me so much more confidence about part 3

Thank you for reading, and for this awesome comment too :D

[riseyuuko.livejournal.com]

I'm glad Uepi gave in for Junno. Both of them can't really resist each other :)

Thank you for sharing and looking forward to the next chapter :D

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

Thank you for reading :D

I'm glad you liked the way things worked out, it would just feel wrong to have Uepi resist him and just go home alone :(

[nikkimattei.livejournal.com]

*cries*

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

Aww, I'm sorry if I made you sad :(

The next chapter will be a little happier :D

Thank you for reading and commenting!!

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

Hehe :D Is it weird that I feel kind of proud leaving you speechless XD

Thank you for reading :D

[sugiex.livejournal.com]

When I read this, my mind was like Nooooo, I sense a major angst fest coming after this chapter despite the time skip *grabs tissues possessively*

I mean it's nice that after six weeks (did I get the time right?) their love remains strong and they can be together again, but the fact that it's only temporary... My heart just aches for the upcoming obstacles they have to face again. It's like reopening all wounds and struggling when you know your loved one is so close yet so far *sniffles* I'm being incoherent.

Thank you for the update! T__T

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

Hopefully the next chapter won't require tissues (I thought it was about time for a bit of random nonsense) but after that...

Yeah the timing is right :D I guess the fact that they just can't get over each other is evidence of how deep they both fell :( There certainly will be obstacles ahead, but hopefully I'll manage to squeeze in some fluff with all that angst >_<

Thank you for commenting :D

[lisa loftsd�ttir (from livejournal.com)]

damn this was a good one
thanks for the update

[kissmegreen.livejournal.com]

Ah! they did it!
but it was inevitable ne?

but it's also understandable how this would rock their already 'unstable' emotions but I think it's also good that they have no regret or else things would be a greater mess >.

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

It was kind of inevitable...I don't think Uepi could just walk away leaving poor Junno in that state :( (plus...it's me...and that was a decent excuse for porn...so it had to be written >_< )

Every action has it's consequences though...and giving in after so long really isn't going to make things any easier on them :(

Thanks for coming back to catch up :D And maybe since you have a few to read you won't feel like they're too short >_