[multichapter] baby blue part 3 chapter 7
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thesecretdoorPairing: JunDa
Rating: R (for slightly graphic references to sex)
Word Count: 1723
Disclaimer: All people mentioned belong only to themselves...aside from JunDa who clearly belong to each other.
Summary: In the fairy tales they fall in love and live happily ever after...but this isn't a fairy tale. How are two people, madly in love, supposed to stay away from each other?
December 25th 2012
He woke up shivering, he reached out to pull the covers up over him again before rolling over to seek out the warmth of the body beside him.
“Junno?” he questioned when he couldn’t feel the other man beside him, and then when he opened his eyes he realised he was alone.
He sat up, looking around for the other man, but was a little confused initially at his surroundings, until it sunk in again that he was in Taguchi’s mum’s home.
His cheeks flushed suddenly, what had they done...in Taguchi’s mother’s house, just a room away from his mother herself. He searched around for his bag, pulling out clean clothes and then he made his way quickly to the bathroom to clean himself off.
After a few minutes of quick but hard scrubbing he switched off the water and dried himself off with a towel, before putting on his clean clothes and stepping out of the bathroom.
“Uepi” Taguchi smiled brightly, almost bumping into him as he re-entered the guest room. “Did you sleep well?”
With the sight of the other man, Ueda’s emotions finally caught up with him and when he opened his mouth to speak, all that came out was a choked gasp. He closed his eyes, taking a few deep breaths to push the memories away, then he brought out one of those fake, bright smiles he thought he’d been fooling everyone with. “Yes, thank you”
When he finally looked back at Taguchi, he looked a mixture of sad and guilty and it hurt Ueda even deeper seeing it. “Uepi...I’m sorry...”
He shook his head “Don’t, don’t apologise, you did nothing wrong...”
“But...you’re sad...and it’s because...”
“It’s because I miss you, but I know that we can’t be together, and I knew that last night, so it’s not your fault ok?”
Taguchi looked as though he was about to protest but Taguchi’s mum’s voice floated up the stairs before he had time to speak “Jun, you’re brother and sister are here, come down and say hello...” Taguchi gave one last concerned glance towards Ueda.
“I’m fine, really, just give me a few minutes to...I’ll be down soon ok?” Taguchi nodded and gently rubbed Ueda’s arm before walking past him and out of the room.
Ueda was thankful at least that cramming so many people into the small house meant there was never a dull moment in the Taguchi household. Both Taguchi’s siblings now had their own families, their partners and children, and the house seemed filled with laughter and chatter, Taguchi catching up with the family he hadn’t seen in a while.
Ueda joined in the conversations where he could, he’d met Taguchi’s siblings before, if only briefly, but they were very much like Taguchi, bright, smiling always eager to please. He tried not to think of the previous night, how Taguchi had opened his legs to him, eager to please. How he’d been just as eager to please Taguchi, hands running over all the sensitive areas of flesh, stroking hard, making them come together.
Dinner was certainly a feast, Taguchi’s mum citing ‘fattening them all up’ as her excuse for the vast quantity of food, and there was nice light hearted conversation to go along with it. They laughed at the terrible jokes from the western style Christmas crackers, and Ueda made Taguchi promise never to repeat them since they were even worse than his own jokes.
After dinner they moved on to opening presents, Ueda had made sure to bring something along, just a simple festive hamper of sweets, biscuits and wine for Taguchi’s mum, as a thank you for having him. He was surprised to receive a gift in return, a cute wooly scarf that matched the ones she also gave to her own children. But the presents were mainly an event for the children and the adults watched on as the children excitedly opened toys and began playing them.
As Taguchi joined in with them, getting down on his hands and knees to play on the carpet with them, Ueda had to admit he seemed as though he would make a very good parent one day, though he bitterly reminded himself that it wouldn’t be with him.
Taguchi’s sister seemed to notice Taguchi’s skill for amusing children too, but when she voiced aloud that Taguchi should really hurry and start his own family, to Ueda’s relief, Taguchi’s mum chipped in and reprimanded her, telling her that just because it was the life she’s chosen it didn’t mean it was the most important thing to everyone. Naturally, Taguchi’s cheery nature managed to ease the tension and within minutes everyone was happy again.
It was a long few hours, Ueda enjoyed the bustle of it all, but he felt a little relieved once it was just the three of them again. Despite not being as active as Taguchi, he seemed to be twice as worn out, though maybe not as worn out as his mother.
Together the three of them cleaned the house until it was back to its usual condition, all the extra pots washed and packed away until next year, and then they had a small snack on some of the leftovers.
“You boys will have to take some of this food with you when you go, I can’t finish all this off alone.”
“That’s alright” Taguchi beamed “Uepi and I will polish it off in no time.” And Ueda couldn’t help but smile at his enthusiasm.
“I’m going to head on up to bed now” Taguchi’s mum announced a short while later “I’ll see you boys for a few hours before you have to leave tomorrow right?”
“Yeah, we’ll leave sometime in the afternoon. Goodnight mum.” Taguchi answered, and once Ueda had bid his goodnights as well, she headed up the creaky stairs.
“Thank you for inviting me, I’ve had a really good Christmas” Ueda smiled almost shyly “It’s nice to do things a little traditionally sometimes, right?”
“It is...and speaking of traditions...I found a little something in the box of decorations” and with a sly smile he pulled out what looked like a twig with small white orbs on. “You know about mistletoe right?” But before Ueda had chance to answer he’d leaned forward and locked their lips together.
Ueda kissed him back, the tension he’d been feeling all day, the flashing images of the previous night all rising up at once to push him forcefully into it. Before he’d even realised it he’d stood from his chair and moved closer to Taguchi, only to be pulled down onto his lap by the man in question.
“Junno” he whined softly between the crushing kisses, until reluctantly Taguchi pulled away slowly, pecking his lips gently just one more time.
“Tatsuya...I have something for you...a Christmas present, but I didn’t want to give it to you when everyone else was around...” and gently he pushed against Ueda’s hips until Ueda stood up, and then after switching out all of the lights, Taguchi lead him up the stairs.
When Taguchi walked over to his bag, Ueda copied his action, kneeling in front of his own to take out the gift he’d brought for Taguchi. He’d been unsure about whether he should give it to him or not, of course he wanted to because he cared for Taguchi and wanted to show his appreciation, but with their relationship the way it was he didn’t want to make things even more complicated.
He was glad he’d bought it after all when Taguchi turned to him, holding out a small box similar to the one he was holding in his own hand. He smiled and handed over his own gift to Taguchi and with a small smile between them, they both took a seat on the futon to open their gifts.
Inside the box Taguchi had given him was a ring, it was a beautiful, feminine looking gold ring that he recognised as being from the latest Louis Vuitton collection. He took it from the presentation box and turned it in his fingers, it was the one he had been looking at, he wondered when it was, if Taguchi had been with him.
“Junno, it’s perfect...” he started, but was surprised at the expression on Taguchi’s face. He’d forgotten that he should have been awaiting Taguchi’s reaction to the gift he’d given him.
“It’s beautiful” the younger man almost whispered, and Ueda watched as he ran his fingers gently over the symbol on the front of the ring.
He cleared his throat shyly “It’s a Claddagh...” he stumbled over the strange sounding word “I heard about them when I went to England that time...” and as Taguchi held the ring closer to inspect it Ueda continued “the heart represents love, the hands friendship and the crown loyalty...they say that if you wear it with the heart pointing towards you, it’s a sign you belong to somebody.”
Taguchi raised his eyes to Ueda then “Thank you, it’s...” but he shook his head with a small smile and didn’t continue, instead he looked back down to the ring before slipping it onto his finger, heart pointed inwards “Even if we can’t be together...I think, in a way, I’ll always belong to you.”
Tears began sliding down Taguchi’s cheeks and his voice shook a little when he spoke next “I’m not the type to fall in love so easily, or so hard...usually...I can move on, but for some reason everything is different with you, it tears at my chest when you’re around, but it feels like I can’t breathe without you.”
“I know” Ueda answered lamely, his own eyes wet with tears “But you heard what Kame said...if they find out they’ll do anything to stop us from being together...by then it will just be worse...”
He could swear he felt his heart breaking with the sob that left Taguchi’s lips, too loud and desperate in the stillness of the night. “But Tatsuya...I love you...I can’t stop it...”
“Junno...” his own voice was growing too shaky now, the strength he’d been fighting to keep for Taguchi’s sake was failing him now, he could feel himself falling apart “Junno” he whimpered again, and then he was scooped into strong arms and held there as they both shook in silent sobs.
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So another angst fest at the end there >_< And for anybody that's interested, these are the rings I had in mind: Ueda's Ring (which I'd be surprised if he didn't actually have since he seems to own everything else from that collection) and Taguchi's Ring (naturally as a huge Buffy The Vampire Slayer fan...I have a thing about Claddagh rings, and even though they're not like...really well known over here, I figured Ueda was more likely to hear about them in England than Japan since they're Irish in origin).
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Date: 2012-07-31 08:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-07-31 08:57 am (UTC)And I'm really, really happy that I can inspire you to write too :D I'm looking forward to seeing what you come up with :D more junda fics are always appreciated :D
Hehe the mistletoe ^__^ I always make sure I'm at least 5 chapter ahead of the chapter I'm posting in terms of writing, so I'd actually written the part about mistletoe weeks ago...so when I saw your comment I knew you'd like this bit :D Ahh, but I couldn't really have Christmas without mistletoe right? XD
Thank you as always for reading <3
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Date: 2012-07-31 08:36 am (UTC)I absolutely love every single part of this chapter! Ueda being treated as a Taguchi family member, his bitterness that he won't be part of Junno's own, Junno's mum chiding his sister (I wonder if she heard them the night before), the mistletoe (sly, Junno, sly XD), the rings (thanks for providing the pictures - does Ueda really wear rings from the woman collection?) and their break down in the end! I hope they will throw their concern overboard and just go for it - on the other hand that'd mean less angst and I love angst! XD
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Date: 2012-07-31 09:10 am (UTC)I'm really happy you liked the whole Christmas atmosphere!!
Taguchi's mum...I don't think she'd be insensitive enough to blurt it out if she had heard anything...but her tune seems to have changed a little from the previous day :P
And the mistletoe >_< what was Junno thinking huh? It was sweet, but he must have known what would happen if they started smooching >_<
Ahh the rings...sometimes I think I do way too much research for my fics >_< I could have just said they gave each other rings, and you guys would probably be happy enough, but somehow I think it's a bit more personal if I know what rings they were :D And I don't know if Ueda actually has any LV rings, but I wouldn't be surprised if he did have one, and since both his necklaces and his bracelet are from the women's range, I wouldn't put it past him to wear a women's ring too (provided they made it his size of course).
As for what will happen >_< you'll just have to wait and see :P
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Date: 2012-07-31 10:41 am (UTC)It seems Junno is the one with the most difficulties to let go... It's too cute! ^^
That's really a nice touch, especially the description of the ring for Junno!
So Ueda's wearing women's juwelery? XD Are you sure it's his own and not given to him by some stylist? I've never realized him wearing the same bracelet. (Could it be that the necklace is the one he got from his runaway co-actor? XD)
Oh, sweet torture! ;)
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Date: 2012-07-31 01:28 pm (UTC)I think the bracelet (http://www.louisvuitton.co.uk/front/#/eng_GB/Collections/Women/Fine-Jewellery/products/Monogram-bracelet-Medium-yellow-gold-Q95012) is definitely his, he's been wearing it quite a lot since the end of last year (the countdown concert, kyoukasho ni nosetai, the chain pamphlet/shops/lives and PVs and single cover shoots...maybe even some magazine shoots)
The necklaces I haven't seen much of since he was wearing the one Hayato gave him for a long time, I'm pretty sure in this pic: https://twitpic.com/abe9os he's wearing two different LV necklaces (http://www.louisvuitton.co.uk/front/#/eng_GB/Collections/Women/Fine-Jewellery/products/Empreinte-Pendant-Pink-Gold--and-Diamond-Q93198 and http://www.louisvuitton.co.uk/front/#/eng_GB/Collections/Women/Fine-Jewellery/products/Monogram-Resille-small-pendant-pointed-flower-yellow-gold-Q93217) and an LV earring too (http://www.louisvuitton.co.uk/front/#/eng_GB/Collections/Women/Fine-Jewellery/products/Monogram-Idylle-ear-studs-in-pink-gold-with-diamond-Q96169 - he's been wearing the earring for quite a while too)
Ok sorry for the link spam there >_< I pay waaaay too much attention to his jewellery!!
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Date: 2012-07-31 02:08 pm (UTC)You're right, he does wear that bracelet quite often! oO I never realized! XD And in that pic that are definitely those necklaces and the earring (why are you familiar with LV?). So Ueda wears very expensive women's jewellery, lol. Doesn't exactly bring out his manliness! XD
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Date: 2012-07-31 03:32 pm (UTC)I know what you mean about the manliness...even before he started wearing LV jewellery he often wore women's jewellery (in particular I think he used to wear a lot of Vivienne Westwood stuff)
It suits him though :D
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Date: 2012-07-31 04:23 pm (UTC)But lots of his jewellery looked feminine, especially the earrings always caught my eye. Well, he has rather feminine features, so it does suit him. ^^
It's a pity, though, that he stopped wearing Gackt's jewellery. ;)
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Date: 2012-07-31 05:15 pm (UTC)I only recognised the LV label since a friend at work is all about designer brands (she's also a big Vivienne Westwood fan)
I did like his Gackt jewellery, but I think you're right about him having quite feminine features, so I think he suits the dainty jewellery too :D
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Date: 2012-07-31 07:41 pm (UTC)I wonder if he still has the old jewellery. ^^
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Date: 2012-07-31 08:58 am (UTC)another great chapter even though i'm starting to feel like an emotional yo-yo hahaha!
i love the idea of a claddagh ring...its symbolism aptly represents the relationship between these two^_^
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Date: 2012-07-31 09:13 am (UTC)I'm glad you're enjoying the story despite all the angst though!
Claddagh rings are beautiful right? and I thought it really did fit for them!
Thank you for reading and commenting!!
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Date: 2012-07-31 09:02 am (UTC)and listening to Seal's 'Waiting for you' sets the perfect tone >.<
the commitment rings are beautiful and so symbolic
and this,
"if they find out they’ll do anything to stop us from being together...by then it will just be worse...”
I think I've mentioned something like this earlier >.<
oh the kiss under the mistletoe was so beautiful i must have re-read that scene over and over again... the perfect image for me to go to bed with ;-)
and now Saturday seems like an eternity's wait >.<
*hugs*
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Date: 2012-07-31 09:18 am (UTC)They are pretty rings right? and I had to have some sweet symbolism in there, it means more that way right?
Indeed, it's a sticky situation they're in, it hurts right now...but if they were together and then found out they'd be faced with something even more difficult T_T
Aww :D I'm so happy you liked it that much :D
Thank you for such a lovely comment dear <3
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Date: 2012-07-31 12:45 pm (UTC)thanks for the update
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Date: 2012-07-31 01:34 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-07-31 02:59 pm (UTC)I love the traditional Christmas celebration and the mistletoe <3 and the rings, I love how you wrote that part :D but.... T^T why don't they become together T^T
Thank you for sharing :D
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Date: 2012-07-31 03:35 pm (UTC)Unfortunately they're not together quite yet >_< there's still a lot in store for them in this part!!
Thank you for reading!!
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Date: 2012-08-01 09:33 am (UTC)And I liked the ending of this chapter~ it was angst but it's bittersweet angst and T.T okay I still cried but still... the rings are really really beautiful and I'm really glad they got those for each other! <3
“Even if we can’t be together...I think, in a way, I’ll always belong to you.”
*sobs* This line got me the most!! AWW JUNNO! *huggles him* of course he'd always belong to Ueda >w<
oh and that mistletoe scene was just so sweet and romantic >w<
Whew at last I can finally be at peace knowing I've read this update xD (I swear I was going nuts without internet, I laughed for an entire five minutes at a bowl of soup T.T I have no idea why I did that!)
Anyways I'll be looking forward to the next chapter as always~ <3 (and now I'll be imagining JunDa with those pretty rings *w*)
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Date: 2012-08-01 11:13 am (UTC)Awww, you're so sweet *hugs* I'm so glad you liked it and that it was on the good side of angsty :D
Oh Junno...and that line...if only they knew what was to come >_< *bites lip to prevent spoilers spilling out*
Hehe, the mistletoe...well it couldn't really be Christmas without mistletoe right?
Thank you for reading :D
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Date: 2012-08-01 12:40 pm (UTC)".if only they knew what was to come >_< *bites lip to prevent spoilers spilling out*"
O.O Oh...OH GOD NO! I hope that potential spoiler isn't what I'm thinking it is right now...and if it is..RAWR NO!! T.T *cough*am I not going to like Junno's mom anymore? *cough* ....>.< great now you're making me panic. *goes to look back at the pretty rings to calm down*
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Date: 2012-08-01 12:47 pm (UTC)It's not to do with Taguchi's mum, she is and always will be awesome...but there are some things on the way that I think you will be very unhappy about...you may even shout at me T_T I'm a little scared actually *hides*
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Date: 2012-08-01 01:35 pm (UTC)Lol...really all the worse case scenarios are plaguing my head right about now =w=
You're just lucky I'm planning on writing a truck load of fluff to help me deal with what's going to come. Oh well I just hope all your planned angst really is worth it in the end >.<