[multichapter] baby blue part 3 chapter 8
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thesecretdoorPairing: JunDa
Rating: G
Word Count: 1166
Disclaimer: All people mentioned belong only to themselves...aside from JunDa who clearly belong to each other.
Summary: In the fairy tales they fall in love and live happily ever after...but this isn't a fairy tale. How are two people, madly in love, supposed to stay away from each other?
December 26th 2012
He was alone again when he woke the next morning, fully dressed and with the ring Taguchi had given him clutched tightly in his hand. He blinked the sleep from his eyes, and then rubbed away the tightness in his skin from where the tears had dried on his cheeks when he’d finally drifted to sleep.
He got up from the futon and tucked the ring safely back in its box before gathering his clean clothes and heading to the bathroom. He stopped for a moment in the hallway as he heard Taguchi’s voice, unconvincingly light, from downstairs.
“I’m just sad that I can’t stay here longer, that’s all” he chirped.
“Junnosuke” came his mother’s serious tone. “I know you better than you think and it really concerns me that you’re unhappy...”
“Mom” Taguchi sighed “I’m not unhappy...things...lately there’s been something...but I’ll be ok, I promise, I just...” and his voice suddenly sounded defeated “I just can’t deal with talking about it right now...”
There was silence for a moment and then Taguchi’s mother heaved a sigh “I understand...but if there’s anything at all I can do, you know that I’m here for you right? Jun, I love you, and I just want you to be happy, no matter what...ok? I’ll always support you...”
The floorboard beneath Ueda’s foot gave a loud creak, and he hurried into the bathroom before he was caught eavesdropping. He showered leisurely under the hot spray, trying to push the conversation from his mind, Taguchi’s sad voice, and his promise that he would be ok, ok without Ueda.
When he returned to the guest room he packed all of his things carefully back into his bag, before slipping his ring onto his finger and then making his way downstairs. The atmosphere downstairs had cheered up considerably since before his shower and he joined in the happy conversations, laughing at Taguchi’s mum’s stories.
After a relaxed morning and lunch, Taguchi announced that it was probably time to head back, so they gathered their things together and got ready to leave.
“You remember what I said Jun...” Taguchi’s mother said almost sternly as she gave Taguchi a tight hug and a kiss on the cheek. Then she turned to Ueda, pulling him in for a hug too “And you come back whenever you want to sweetheart, it’s been a pleasure having you with us.” Ueda tried to hide his blush as he said his thanks and goodbyes and then they both climbed back into Taguchi’s mini.
The drive home was quiet and uneventful, but once they arrived back at Ueda’s apartment building Taguchi pulled in beside Ueda’s car and switched off the engine.
“We should talk” Taguchi said, barely above a whisper and Ueda felt his stomach turn. “I meant those things that I said...” he cleared his throat “I love you...but I’ve been thinking about it, and right now, this isn’t good for us”
Ueda nodded “We were both stupid to let things get to this...” Taguchi took his hand and rubbed his thumb gently over the ring but said nothing. After and endless few minutes of battling to control his emotions, Ueda finally slipped his hand out from Taguchi’s “I’d better...the dogs haven’t had a proper walk in a few days, I had Mizusawa-san feed them but she’s quite old and...I’d better go take care of them.”
Taguchi nodded and seemed to snap out of some kind of daze “Yeah, of course, then I’ll see you at work tomorrow?” Ueda nodded and after giving Taguchi’s hand a light squeeze he got out of the car.
He pressed the buzzer of his neighbour to get into the building and then called into her apartment to pick up his key and drop of some of the Christmas cake Taguchi’s mum had sent back with him. It would have been much more convenient if he’d had a spare key, but he’d given that to Taguchi, and no amount of inconvenience in the world was enough for him to take it back.
He expected the dogs to be excited and jump up at him as soon as he opened the door, but as he’d gone into the kitchen they seemed to sense his mood and fell quiet, expressing their happiness only in the wagging of their tails. He put down his bags and the food and then gathered up the dogs leads to take them out.
He felt completely drained of energy, he was sad but he was holding together, he just felt empty. He let the dogs off the leashes once they reached the park and then found a bench to sit on, but he tried not to let his mind wander despite the way his fingers moved to fondle the ring on his other hand.
It had been incredibly sweet of Taguchi to give it to him, and it reminded him of just how in tune they seemed to be sometimes. They always laughed at Taguchi for being the KY of the group, but it seemed when there was something he cared about he really was anything but it. Ueda had looked at the new LV collection when it had first been advertised, but among all of the new selection of rings, the only one that caught his eye was the one now glinting at him in the early evening sun. Had he told Taguchi that? Or had the younger man seen him looking and noticed it? Or had Taguchi just become so used to him that he knew what things he would like?
He’d never told him that he would enjoy a weekend away to go backpacking, or scuba diving...or that he was just romantic enough that he loved the idea of watching the sunset, and he’d certainly never let on that his heart gave a weak flutter every time the younger man called him ‘baby’.
His mind wandered back to that song, he really liked it and yet he’d never really got it, not until now. He thought back to him and Taguchi singing those words together so long ago, peacefully oblivious to how much it would hurt them years later. He couldn’t say he regretted what he had with Taguchi, if he could go back and change things, knowing what he knew now, he wouldn’t change a thing, the times they had were too precious.
He found himself humming, and laughed a little to himself, he could almost hear Taguchi’s voice shooting off ridiculous puns about how his favourite colour was blue and how Ueda was his baby...like it was fate or something, but there had been no puns that night, only pain.
He knew it was time to leave once he felt icy nips along his cheeks where the winter chill in the air almost froze the tears he hadn’t known he was shedding. He stood from the bench and called the dogs back to him, and then he returned to the quiet of his apartment.
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Sorry for this post being so late...and so short >_<
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Date: 2012-08-04 06:28 pm (UTC)i'm patient aren't i?
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Date: 2012-08-04 06:46 pm (UTC)But I'm afraid you'll just have to be patient a bit longer :(
Thank you for reading though :D
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Date: 2012-08-04 06:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-08-04 06:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-08-04 06:56 pm (UTC)As for just how much Junno's mum knows...you'll have to wait and see, she will be back again and quite important possibly in part 4 (though maybe part 5 if part 4 ends up too long - and assuming you all still want to read that far)
Hehe, they certainly do fall into each others arms a lot...but if I left them that way it really wouldn't be a long story >_<
Tuesday isn't too far away :)
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Date: 2012-08-04 06:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-08-04 07:00 pm (UTC)Hehe, I have been trying to make the chapters a little longer...but some of them didn't work out so well >_
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Date: 2012-08-04 07:00 pm (UTC)Junno's conversation with his mom was so bittersweet >.< I feel happy that whatever it is his mom will be there for him. But at the same time...he really wants to move on >.< *cries*
Which makes me think of Ueda because he doesn't really have that kind of support does he? Like at least he has Maru, Kame and even Koki but I wonder if any of his family members will be supporting him? And *sniffles* that scene of Ueda just sitting there in the park alone reflecting on things just emphasized on my thoughts about him being alone T.T
I think despite what just happened he's fallen in love with Junno even more right? T.T Gah how will this turn out!? *pulls hair*
So...I'm guessing I should have tissues prepared for the next chapter right? =w= Again I'm loving this and I only hope all this angst will be worthwhile in the end...it better be >.<
Thanks for the update~~!! <3
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Date: 2012-08-04 07:54 pm (UTC)He does, he's trying to be sensible about it all, but his mum seems like the type to really support him no matter what.
Hmm, we haven't really seen anything of Ueda's family up until now...though if I do continue with the next part/parts we'll likely have to see them at some point :) He does have the rest of the band though, which is something at least...now he just needs to get off his butt and go see them instead of feeling all sad all by himself >_<
You're definitely right about the love thing, I don't think either of them realised just how hard it would be once they ended it...which is kind of why they're sticking to the not being together thing, if it hurt this bad when they were only just realising they were in love, how bad would it be if they'd been happily together for months and then had to split up? :(
I don't think the next chapter is quite as sad as the previous few...but maybe keep the tissues within arms reach just in case :P
Hmmm....am I really cruel enough to drag you guys through like 8 months of this fic...for it to end badly...oohh, though do remember there's more I can write...so if you're not happy with the ending/you want more anyways just say the words and I'll start on part 4 :D
As always thank you for reading :D *hugs*
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Date: 2012-08-05 12:37 am (UTC)Hmm right...it would've been even more painful if they'd had to break up by force from being together for so long and suddenly got found out than if they just end it willingly here right? (ROFL I'm slow, I'm just realising this now x_x)
=.= they way you're saying this makes me feel like I won't like the ending....*buys a years-supply of tissue*
Ah but after I read this love quote my friend posted on facebook a few days ago I just had to think of this fic >.< It says "The couples that are 'meant to be' are the ones who go through everything that is meant to tear them apart and come out even stronger than they were before." Lol I'm keeping that quote in mind throughout this fic just to make myself happy >.< It's kind of true in a way though, isn't it? >w<
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Date: 2012-08-04 07:53 pm (UTC)They are really destined to be together, ne. But I hope it'll take them some more time to get their happy ending! ;)
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Date: 2012-08-04 07:56 pm (UTC)Thank you for reading, I'm really happy that it was worth the wait for you :D
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Date: 2012-08-05 12:12 am (UTC)You can go and make them suffer all you want, you know there's one person who'll love you for it!It always is! =)
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Date: 2012-08-05 03:00 pm (UTC)thanks for the update
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Date: 2012-08-06 07:09 am (UTC)I'm sorry for all the angst >_< lol and I really have been trying to make my chapters longer!!!
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Date: 2012-08-06 02:28 am (UTC)She sounds suspicious! like she knows something... like the words used here are those of comfort/support typical of the situation Ueda and Junno are in. They remind me of the time Junno's sister was jeering him to have kids and normally, mothers would support that gesture but then what she said, something about 'not everyone is cut out for that sorta 'textbook' life had me thinking.
Well I'm glad she's that type of person... I guess that's where Junno got his good-natured genes from ;-)
But a sad story is heartbreaking indeed.
I was happy when Ueda put his ring on though... and then when Junno was rubbing his thumb over it... those rings really are deeply symbolic... in a way they'll bring out or rather remind them of their sadness of not being able to be together let alone freely but it also somewhat offers some reassurance that they are both on the same boat... they love each other because even though 'love' is the culprit it's also consoling.
There's just no way around it... not much to do when they see each other every day, force to brush shoulders, converse etc due to the line of work... they will reach there, their breaking point... for better or for worse.
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Date: 2012-08-06 07:27 am (UTC)And yes the rings...those will come to be pretty important to the two of them, a sad reminder of what they should have :( but as you say, it's also a reminder that they both feel that way and they're still in it together.
Ohh...breaking point *mischievous grin* I haven't written in yet but I already have it planned out :P
:D Thank you for such a lovely comment *hugs*
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Date: 2012-08-06 06:58 am (UTC)Taguchi's mama really knows her son well! She's such a deep lady (: And the ring... >________<
I hope JunDa will sort out their issues soon because I'm really looking forward to their fluffy days ahead!
Thank you for sharing !
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Date: 2012-08-06 07:29 am (UTC)Their fluffy days...don't worry they may get a chance for that...sometime :D
Thank you for reading :D