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thesecretdoorPairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-15
Word Count: 1407
Disclaimer: All people mentioned belong only to themselves...aside from JunDa who clearly belong to each other.
Summary: In the fairy tales they fall in love and live happily ever after...but this isn't a fairy tale. How are two people, madly in love, supposed to stay away from each other?
21st June 2013
“So what was that all about?” Maru asked as he brought two steaming hot cups of tea over to his coffee table. Ueda, curled up defensively on the sofa, clutching a cushion to his chest could only shake his head. “It's not the first time though is it? Something happened on Valentine's Day too, right?”
He looked up, only half surprised and nodded. “That wasn't the first time either...” Maru's eyebrows raised but he didn't respond “There was Christmas and his birthday too...”
Maru inhaled deeply, as though taking all the information in. “But you're not together, right? The way you've been acting around each other...”
Ueda shook his head slowly, “No...that's all real...”
There was silence for a little while as Maru attempted to sip his tea, which was still far too hot. Giving up, he put the cup back down with a sigh, and muttered “I just don't understand”
Ueda waited for a few moments, just to check Maru was really addressing him and not the cup in front of him, but when he turned to face him, pity on his face, Ueda shook his head again “I don't either...”
“It can't feel good though, well I mean technically...obviously it does, but I mean, it must hurt afterwards...”
Ueda nodded “Yeah...I just don't know what to do about it...I know it sounds ridiculous, but I just can't stop loving him...and I can't stop wanting him”
“But the way he's been treating you...and he's with that girl too...” Maru pushed, a confused expression on his face.
“I know...and part of me hates him for it...but I love him more...”
Maru shook his head and glanced off to the side for a moment. “And you still want to be with him...?”
“I can't...I know that” Ueda responded sadly “And I want to be his friend again, and to forget all of the other things I feel about him...but I don't know how when being around him is killing me...”
Maru looked at him thoughtfully, a little bit of pity sneaking in again as Ueda felt tears prickling behind his eyes again “I think the first thing is that the two of you need to figure out exactly where you stand with each other.”
He could feel the tears tipping over “I know...I just...it's hard, talking to him right now...”
“If it would be easier I could come with you...I mean I know now that stuff has been happening...you wouldn't have to hide anything from me...”
He couldn't help a small smile “Thank you, I really appreciate how nice you're being about everything...but I really think it'd be better if I just went on my own...”
Maru nodded “That's ok, as long as you're up to it...don't let your feelings for him get you into any more trouble, just talk it out, be firm about what it is you need from him.”
“Yeah, thanks.” And he leant over to give Maru a quick hug, only to be pulled tighter by the other man. “I'm sorry I didn't tell you before...it's not that I don't trust you...”
“Don't even worry about it” Maru cut him off “You just get yourself sorted out and then we can talk about it properly ok?”
Ueda nodded, taking a deep breath, and wiping his face quickly with the tissue Maru thoughtfully held out to him. “Ok, I'm going to go now...before I have chance to chicken out.”
On the way over to Taguchi's place he built up his resolve, sorting haphazardly through his feelings for the other man, and trying to figure what exactly he was going to say. Any plans he had flew out the window though as he knocked at Taguchi's door and the other man answered, his hair dripping wet, and droplets running down his chest, covered only by a towel wrapped around his waist.
“We need to talk” he said, the words sounding stronger than he felt.
“Sorry, now isn't a good time for me...” Taguchi replied, almost nonchalantly.
His temper flared “What? How dare you...after what just happened...you owe me an explanation.”
“You're the one that ran away.” Taguchi countered. And then when he took a step closer to enter Taguchi's apartment, Taguchi blocked his path with his arm. “I told you I can't talk right now.”
Ueda felt his temper flare more and he pushed his way passed, not even pausing to take off his shoes as he stormed straight into the living room and turned to face Taguchi. Whatever retort he was about to throw at the other man was lost however when a light, giggly voice floated along the hallway.
“Guchi...have you seen my pant...” but the girls voice broke off as she ground to a halt, staring back and forth between Taguchi and Ueda. For a moment the only sound was the quiet drip of water from her long, dark hair onto the floor, and then blushing, she wrapped her towel tighter around her body “I'm so sorry, I didn't realise...” but she'd retreated back down the hallway before Ueda heard what she hadn't realised.
Not that he would have been listening anyway, he was too busy trying to fight down the urge to scream, or cry or hit something. Instead of doing any of them he clenched his fists tightly, ignoring the way his whole body was shaking, as he stomped back towards the door.
Back in the hallway outside Taguchi's door he turned to the other man, but he couldn't even seem to form words. Instead he reached into his pocket for his keys, all but breaking Taguchi's off of the keychain, and as hard as he could, he threw them at Taguchi. He could tell it hurt Taguchi as they hit him square in the chest, but other than flinching he made no other reaction than to tighten his lips.
“You may as well give those to your little whore.” Ueda finally managed to spit. But again Taguchi didn't react, instead he let out a rough sigh and reached for his own set of keys hanging by the door. He unclipped Ueda's keys from the keyring and threw them to the floor beside Ueda's feet before slamming the door shut.
Ueda resisted the urge to punch Taguchi's door and instead swooped to pick up his keys and fled the building.
The run down the stairs did nothing for his anger, it just made him even more short of breath and agitated, and the final straw came when he fumbled with his keys to unlock the car door, only to drop them onto the floor.
His fists clenched automatically, and it was only a split second decision that saved his car from receiving the full force of his anger. He almost regretted the decision a moment later though when his fist collided with the concrete wall and he felt at least a few layers of skin scraped away.
But if anything, he felt the pain only helped, and so he drew back again and again, hitting the wall with both fists until his anger left him.
Only then did the pain catch up to him and he cried out once as he slumped down to the floor, watching as the blood dripped down his fingers onto the tarmac, tears rolling from his cheeks in sobs to join it.
He was vaguely aware that he shouldn't be here, that he was still outside Taguchi's building, crumpled pitifully onto the floor while Taguchi was too busy up there, probably fucking that slut, to even hear his desperate cries.
He dragged himself up and picked up his keys, much more calmly slotting the key into the lock, and opening his car door. He climbed into it, just sitting for a few moments, trying to pull himself together, before he reached into his glove-box for the spare bandages he kept in there for boxing. He wrapped his knuckles roughly and then switched on his engine, before setting out driving.
For a while he drove in circles, not sure exactly where to go, he didn't want to go home and be on his own, but he didn't want to go back to Maru's after their talk earlier that day. He drove a little further, and then finally the thought hit him, there was only one person that could help him, just one other person he knew of that had been through this before. Kame.
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Now we're pretty much in the eye of the storm. Let's hope his talk with Kame can calm things down...*hides*
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Date: 2012-10-13 11:04 am (UTC)Thank you for sharing :D
Sorry for my not-so good comment, just came out from exams...
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Date: 2012-10-13 09:44 pm (UTC)Thank you for reading :) Indeed things are getting pretty intense but we're getting towards the end now so things will have to settle down soon :)
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Date: 2012-10-13 11:16 am (UTC)But but...okay so my dream actually came true then. It was about the keys. And I'm not sure which version is sadder, yours or the one in my dream >_<
I dreamt that Junno actually went up to Ueda and directly asked for his keys back and actually told him he wanted to give them to that stupid whore >_< And Ueda threw them to the ground and demanded for his key back.
...on second thought no, your's is sadder because that stupid whore is there (I've decided not to use her name anymore so no offence to the actual actress >.<)
And oh god I'm hating Junno more and more! How dare he accuse Ueda of running away! HE RAN TO THE FUCKING TOILET AND JUST LEFT UEDA THERE TO CRY! And to make things worse he goes back to fuck that stupid whore of his...GDI HOW MUCH SEX DOES HE WANT IN A DAY!?!?
I know you never meant to make Junno a total jerk but really I'm so close to wanting to throw him in front of a moving train!
I really hope Kame comes to the rescue and sorts these two out. Also I just hope at least SOMEONE (I'm betting Koki) gets to punch Junno square in the face because he really deserves it.
Ah! But question! I know they gave the keys back (oh god really knowing how much those signify I'm at my wits end with these two T.T) But what about the keychains?? Did they give those back too or what??
AARGH! Can't tuesday come any faster? I need to get my happy fluffy JunDa back T.T
Anyway thanks for the update! I'd...better get Ueda's bday fic done soon to make my weekend not-so depressing anymore T.T (It's bad enough I found this week's dame yoru a little disappointing with hardly any Ueda (or JunDa) in it >.<)
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Date: 2012-10-13 09:29 pm (UTC)I know right!
I'm starting to think all this boy wants is sex!
His action is really fueling my angsty side.
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Date: 2012-10-14 07:22 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-10-13 10:08 pm (UTC)Your version is pretty darn heart-breaking, but I totally wouldn't forgive Junno at all if he did give her his spare key >_< I think I have my work cut out for me as it is though trying to make people like Junno again.
Junno did make me pretty upset writing this too, he's blaming Uepi again for things that aren't his fault, and turning back to Mayuko after being with Uepi too...Uepi really must have gotten to him T_T For some reason this is just how it turned out though...I had the image of Junno being that way and just went with it. I hope I can redeem him.
Lol, and if it will pull up your spirits a little, I can promise you Junno will get hit by someone at some point before we're through :P
I guess the keychains probably were still attached to the keys when they gave them back...I mean if they were mad enough to throw the keys back at each other, they probably wouldn't want to hang onto the keychains either :( but don't give up on them yet ok?
I'll be looking forward to seeing what you come up with for Ueda's birthday fic :D
Thank you for reading dear ♥
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Date: 2012-10-14 07:26 am (UTC)Well when you put it that way then I'll looking forward to Junno redeeming himself. He's got ALOT of work to do at the rate he's hurting Uepi >_< And yay he gets hit!! I'll be looking forward to that too xD
=( So they gave the keychains back too...that's so sad. But in a way I think if they hang on to those it'll only make them (or at least Junno) realise how much the other means to them...lol I'm only hoping for the best at this point xD
The birthday fic...it's actually really long I surprised myself xD hopefully I'll get it done before the weekend is over ^^
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Date: 2012-10-13 11:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-10-13 10:12 pm (UTC)Haha, I'm glad I can trust you to enjoy the rocking of the boat!! There will be a little more of that, but we're getting pretty close to the end so I think it's time I started wrapping this part up! :D
Thank you for reading ♥
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Date: 2012-10-13 01:53 pm (UTC)Taguchi can have a fair share of Ueda's pain (literally, lol). No point hurting over a douche!I can probably write an essay and rant on how big a bastard Taguchi is but I'm trying to keep my negativity in check.
Nonetheless, thanks for the update! :D
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Date: 2012-10-13 10:15 pm (UTC)Don't worry about negativity...I'm happy if I can invoke any kind of strong emotion *__* it makes me feel all fluffy inside.
Thank you for reading :D and commenting too!
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Date: 2012-10-13 04:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-10-13 10:24 pm (UTC)Next chapter we'll find out what Kame has to say :D
Thank you for reading ♥
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Date: 2012-10-13 09:26 pm (UTC)I had to check the previous chapter to make sure all this happened on the same day =_=;
a mere few hours between, I suppose.
Well it's bad that within the same space of time Junno still has sex with the girl... I mean, how horny could one man be! especially when he's so convinced(?) that he's in love with Tatsuya.
And then the way how he dealt with Tatsuya at the apt. I mean, it was like Tatsuya was someone who's after him but he's not interested... it's like Tatsuya is his annoying Ex or something.
And Junno still thinks he's right.
I don't know girl, but you'll have to come really good to let Junno redeem himself.
I really don't like 'this' Junno. And I'm starting to really believe that Tatsuya would be better off without him.
I thought he was suffering but~
I don't know.
But I'm glad Tatsuya gave him back the keys. He should've handed over the ring too.
In any case, I'm very much interested to read how you'll turn things around ^^
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Date: 2012-10-13 10:30 pm (UTC)He really was a jerk at his apt too right :( I really do have my work cut out for me if I want to redeem Junno in everyone's eyes. He really got out of hand in this part >_< I hope I can manage it...there's still at least one more part I'll definitely write, so hopefully I'll be able to redeem him a little in that part too :)
Thank you for reading, and sticking with me through this ♥
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Date: 2012-10-14 01:52 am (UTC)cant wait to see how this goes
thanks for the update =)
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Date: 2012-10-14 10:40 am (UTC)no subject
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