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thesecretdoorPairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 2224
Disclaimer: All people mentioned belong only to themselves...aside from JunDa who clearly belong to each other.
Summary: In the fairy tales they fall in love and live happily ever after...but this isn't a fairy tale. How are two people, madly in love, supposed to stay away from each other?
22nd June 2013
Taguchi retreated back to his corner of the dance studio, and the others didn't protest, he was too shocked by what had happened to have responded if they had anyway. He didn't mean it, or rather he did, but he really was trying and he didn't mean for it to come out that way.
He took a swig of his water, his eyes returning immediately to the door, wishing Ueda would just walk back through it. From the corner of his eye he could see Kame talking to the choreographer, but soon they broke away and everyone turned to find somewhere to sit and wait.
The minutes passed and still Ueda didn't return. Eventually Maru stood and announced that he was going to go and search for the other man, he hadn't taken even his keys so there was little chance he was going home.
If Taguchi knew Ueda, and at some point he had, better than anyone else knew him, he'd be off finding something to punch until his anger left him, and then he would curl up in a sad little ball and wait for someone to find him.
His stomach gave a slight turn at the thought of Ueda hitting things, he hadn't missed the smears of red across the wall in the parking lot of his building that morning. Part of him had known, but it still hurt him just a little to see the confirmation wrapped around Ueda's knuckles in the form of bandages.
But his anger was just too much. He felt like crying, only tears wouldn't come, only insults and accusations, and bitter feelings, regrets. He felt like everything was building up inside just waiting to explode, like he was on course to self-destruct.
There was silence as they waited, but as the clock kept ticking, there was no sign of Ueda. Maru returned some fifteen minutes later, but he was alone, and the sad shake of his head was all the explanation they needed.
Still nobody spoke, though the choreographer sighed a few times, and then finally, the door creaked open. All heads turned to the door expectantly, but it was just a young boy, one of the juniors, that appeared.
“KAT-TUN-san” he almost squeaked. “Johnny-san asked me to come down and tell you that he would like to see you all in his office right away. ” and he ducked quickly back out of the room.
There was a collective gasp as they all turned to each other, fear in their eyes at the thought of what the head could possibly need to see them so desperately about, and so soon after Ueda had stormed out.
They barely spoke as they waited in the elevator, arriving in the administration offices too quickly, still dressed in their dance clothes.
“I'm sorry” Taguchi quickly blurted out as they headed towards Johnny's secretary. “What ever happens now is because of me...I'm really sorry guys.”
He almost wanted to cry again as a gentle hand rubbed soothingly at his shoulder “Let's not freak out until we know what is happening.” and Koki offered him a small smile.
“Ah, thank you for coming” Johnny's secretary said, her voice entirely too cheery to fit the situation. “Taguchi-kun, he'd like to see you first, if the rest of you could please take a seat for a moment.” And with a quick smile she turned back to her computer screen.
He gave the other members a hopeful smile that didn't give him any courage at all, and then he took a deep breath before knocking on the office door.
When he entered, Ueda was sat facing an exhausted looking Johnny, only his head was down, staring intently at the floor as he sniffled and dabbed intermittently at his cheeks.
“Please take a seat” Johnny almost sighed, and he waited until Taguchi had sat down in the empty chair beside Ueda before continuing. “There seems to be problem...I assume you've figured out already why you're here?”
Taguchi swallowed hard, and slowly he shook his head. Of course he knew that Ueda must have come to Johnny and told him of their argument, but he didn't know if that was the extent of their conversation.
“Ueda-kun has come to me requesting to quit the agency.”
Even despite Ueda's words, Taguchi didn't believe that Ueda would possibly sink to this level, that he would actually try and stop their work together, to break the group apart. “Uepi...why?” he gasped.
“He has explained to me that, through fault of your own, the relationship between you two has become...complicated, uncomfortable to the point that Ueda-kun feels he can no longer work with you under the current conditions.”
“What...Uepi...no, don't....” he whispered turning his attention to Ueda. “Uepi, please...I didn't meant it, we can work something out...don't leave...” but when Ueda showed no signs of responding he turned back to Johnny “Please...you're not going to let him quit?”
“Ultimately, the decision isn't mine to make. I can't force Ueda-kun to work here against his will. Though obviously, it would work in my favour to find some other agreement.”
“I'll do anything...” Taguchi responded quickly, clinging to the hope that there is some other answer to their situation.
“Hhhmm” Johnny began, regarding the two of them carefully. “Taguchi-kun, can I please have your account of things...” and when Taguchi turned to Ueda he quickly added “You don't need to confer, Ueda-kun has already made his feelings clear, I would like to hear your side of the story.”
“Last year...” he began uncertainly. “In March...we were away on tour and there was a mix up with rooms, and we ended up sharing a room...” he glanced at Ueda, looking for any sign that he was giving away too much, but Ueda was as unresponsive as ever. He turned instead to Johnny, but his expression was just as unreadable. “We were drinking...and things got...we ended up sleeping together...”
“Having sexual intercourse?” Johnny clarfied.
“Yes” Taguchi confirmed, the words making him feel a little uneasy. “After that we kind of...just, kept...letting it happen...but then, without us even noticing we started to develop feelings for each other...I guess we must have known for some time, deep down, but by the time we finally admitted our feelings, we'd already fallen in love.”
He could feel a lump rising in his throat, the memories of it all coming back, not just the bitter ones of feeling their love but not being able to be together, but the simpler times, nights curled up together on the sofa, laughing at random TV shows, feeling like he had everything he could ever need.
“But you decided to break up?” Johnny pushed, urging him on.
His voice was heavier when he spoke again “Kame had warned us...he explained about what happened with him and Akanishi, and we were worried that if anyone found out we'd be forced to stop seeing each other, and we thought that it would be easier on us to just end things ourselves than to stay together and be forced apart later, when our feelings were stronger.”
“And that didn't work...” Johnny urged again.
“No...at first we were both really depressed and we kept going back to each other...but it was only making things harder, and I thought...I thought that if we tried not to be so close, it might...” he started, his voice cracking. “I thought we could stay away from each other...but it's worse.”
“Do you agree that the current situation is impossible to work in?”
He looked back to Ueda, thinking of the things that had happened between them, the fights, the cold words, the blood on the wall of the parking lot. The anger and hurt that he saw reflected back at him whenever he dared to look in Ueda's eyes. It was impossible. He broke down, tears flooding from his eyes as desperate sobs replaced his words.
He took a tissue from the box that Johnny offered to him, and he dabbed furiously at his eyes as he tried to calm himself enough to speak, and Johnny waited patiently until he could. “Don't let Uepi leave...let me go instead...I'm the one that's been causing so much trouble...it's my fault things are as they are...Uepi shouldn't be punished for this, please, let me quit instead...”
Ueda turned to him finally, surprise in his eyes, but clouded with something else, gratitude. “Junno, don't...it's ok...”
“It's not ok” he insisted “I've hurt you so much...the group too...”
“But Junno...” Ueda countered reaching out his hand for Taguchi's, but his words were interrupted by Johnny.
“Boys...” they both turned to him, and were surprised to find a small smile on Johnny's face. “I can see that you both still care about each other very much...” and they both nodded profusely. “That's good.” And with a long sigh he looked from their hands, still holding each other, back to their faces. “There is something I should explain to you, and then maybe again to Kame-chan since he clearly hasn't understood my intentions. I didn't stop him and Akanishi-kun from being together because I wouldn't allow a relationship between employees. I kept them apart for their own sakes.”
“What do you mean?” It was Ueda that asked first, but Taguchi had been thinking it too.
“Akanishi-kun has always been a loose canon. I don't hold anything against him, and I like him as a person. But when you've worked so closely with young men for as long as I have, you can usually tell how they are going to turn out from their personality. Akanishi-kun has always been loud and untame and a little selfish, I know very well what can happen when that kind of person is given the kind of attention and adoration that he seemed set to attain. Of course it was my intention to try and coach him through that...but you can see for yourselves what has become of him. He doesn't think about the consequences of his actions, or how it will affect those around him when there is something he wants badly enough...or even half-heartedly enough. And the relationship I saw between them was certainly not serious and whole-hearted...not from Akanishi-kun's side at least. Maybe it was selfish of me...but I didn't want to ruin the potential Kame-chan had by letting him be lead be Akanishi-kun and exposed to whatever Akanishi-kun's whims took hold of...I didn't want Kame-chan to get hurt, and to ruin his career over it, so I set a test for them. If their relationship really was strong enough to endure it...then I would have certainly given them my blessing, but you know yourselves how things turned out.”
“But Kame did get hurt...Akanishi lost interest in him...” Ueda protested.
“And how much worse do you think he would have been hurt if I'd allowed them to be together? Do you think Akanishi-kun would have been able to keep it secret? And what when the media caught hold of it? What when however many weeks, or months or years down the line...he moved onto the next thing that caught his eye...and lost interest then...how would Kame-chan feel then?”
It was a good point, Taguchi thought, but not the point of the conversation they were here to have. “But then...if you only kept them apart for reasons specific to them...”
The smile was coming back a little on Johnny's face “Really, Taguchi-kun, in the 50 years that I've been running a company based around handsome, talented boys...you think this is only the second time this kind of thing has happened?”
He couldn't help his mouth from gaping, but it seemed so obvious now, how could there not be others like them? “And in those cases...what happened?”
“That depends entirely on their role within the company...for those not in the spotlight, as it were, naturally it is a lot easier...for those, like yourselves, with a lot of media attention on them...it can be a little more difficult to handle.” Johnny replied.
“But there's a chance” Ueda chipped in anxiously “there's a chance that we could both stay in the group...and we could be together?”
“A chance” Johnny admitted “but there would be conditions...and naturally as the head of the company, my first priority is the welfare and image of the group...if your relationship would do nothing to jeopardise those, then maybe...”
He turned to Ueda at the same time Ueda turned to him, and the hope he was greeted with matched his own, for a moment, it was as though the last nine months hadn't happened.
“The most important things to ascertain first...are that the two of you want to be together badly enough to care about keeping to the conditions, and that the other members of your unit are ok with it.”
“We do...please...” it was Ueda's voice, small and desperate, and close to tears again.
“Please...” Taguchi chorused.
Johnny heaved a sigh. “Then I'd like the two of you to wait outside for a little while, so I can speak to the other members alone. As far as my office staff are aware, this meeting concerns a fight between the two of you...and one of the conditions to you staying in the group is that only a select few people know about you...so please act appropriately.”
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Firstly sorry for the late post...I started doing this a few hours ago but got totally distracted >_<
Secondly...I hope this lived up to everyones expectations of Johnny...at first when I wrote it, it kind of felt like I was trying to take the easy way out or something :( But it seemed like the solution that would work out best for everyone.
And thirdly...a little apology to Akame/Akanishi fans...this could be seen as bashing on them a little...but I don't mean it in that way...that's just the way the story fit together...
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Date: 2012-10-24 12:03 am (UTC)I hope you're feeling better soon :)
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Date: 2012-10-25 12:53 pm (UTC)Junno is still a bit of jerk right? Or rather not quite redeemed yet...but hopefully I can bring him back round :)
Lol, and I wanted Johnny to be a good guy in this, it would be too much of a struggle to have them still fighting everyone >_< at least they have an important ally almost on their side :)
I'm glad you didn't think the Akame thing was bashing. When I first planned it, I wanted it to be of a little more significance than this, but that was not far off a year ago now >_< and things change, it just didn't really fit in more than this. So I hope it doesn't seem too half-hearted.
I've finished writing part 3 now (though there may still be some edits) and there's only 3 more chapters left, so you're safe from more angst...for this part at least! >_<
Thank you for reading dear ♥
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Date: 2012-10-23 08:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-10-24 12:18 am (UTC)Lol, it's about time a voice of reason showed up right? >_< and your predictions are getting even closer :P
Thank you for reading ^__^
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Date: 2012-10-23 11:10 pm (UTC)cant wait for the next one
thanks for the update =)
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Date: 2012-10-24 12:19 am (UTC)Now I just next to finish writing the next one >_<
Thank you for reading and commenting!!
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Date: 2012-10-24 01:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-10-25 12:54 pm (UTC)Thank you for reading!
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Date: 2012-10-24 03:26 am (UTC)So many things happened in this chappie.
Massive turn of events :-)
I'm not sure yet but why do I feel like Junno and Ueda in that, even though I knew the answer is for them to still be together as secretly as they could - but with Johnny's understanding and blessing and easy explanation, everything just seems so simple, like yeah, the answer has been there all along and they have wasted so many months hurting each other... do you get me? Its like I was waiting for a big drum roll or something drastic like... idek lol and it's all your fault for giving us such a roller coaster ride >_<
By the way, all this is to say that I like your approach in handling things... and I'm grinning thinking of all the fluffy moments that will now follow *_________*
Anyway, I hope I'm making sense because that's all I can say for now... can't wait for the new update!
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Date: 2012-10-25 01:07 pm (UTC)I know exactly what you mean >_< As I mentioned in the comment thing at the bottom, it kind of felt to me like taking the easy way out...and like what was the point in the whole of this part if they were just going to get Johnny's permission all along? But I was kind of hoping people would be happy enough with it anyway, and that maybe the big twist everyone was waiting for could be the fact that it was all ok all along, they just didn't know. Kind of like a Neverending Story kind of deal >_<
From the beginning I'd always planned that Johnny would give them permission to be together and stay in the group...but when I was creating all that angst I didn't really think about how it was all going to come together...but yeah, I get what you mean about how it feels a bit anti-climactic almost - I just didn't want to complicate the story any more by adding more twists in.
With that said :) I'm glad you enjoyed the update, and I'll be sure to keep things fluffy for a while :P Thank you for reading!
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Date: 2012-10-24 03:55 am (UTC)This chapter left me grinning all day
Thank you for sharing ^^
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Date: 2012-10-25 01:08 pm (UTC)Thank you for reading!
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Date: 2012-10-24 09:14 am (UTC)Though I'm surprised Junno told him the entire story...it would've been funny if all Ueda told him was that they got into an argument. But yeah I thought knowing your angsty self you'd have some drastic reaction from Johnny or something >_< I'm glad things calmed down though ^^ Seriously he seems so understanding I love him here >w<
And I'm glad you explained some things from Junno's side, how he knew the blood on the wall was Ueda's and all it's just so heartbreaking and sweet at the same time.
Aww but don't think about this as taking the easy way out...I know after all they've been through this seemed like a very good way to wrap things up also I can imagine how the future parts (lol that is if you'll still write them) will be with JunDa trying to keep to Johnny's conditions and keeping their relationship secret while some people will know (ooh that could mean Junno will have to tell Taguchi-mama about Ueda wouldn't he?) It's all so exciting >w<
And lol I should be watching out for any last minute angsty twist you probably might add in but really I'm just so happy things might just turn around for them finally so I don't think my brain can take on any more angst (so warn me if you do okay? xD)
Whee I just can't wait for the next part, I'm sure Junno will want to comfort Uepi while their waiting for the others in Johnny's office but they can't LOL poor things >w<
Again thanks so much for the update~ <3
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Date: 2012-10-25 01:15 pm (UTC)I hope Junno it starting to redeem himself a little too, I know he couldn't quite be there yet, but until the rest of this part and hopefully at the start of the next part I hope to redeem him fully.
I'm glad you're looking forward to the next part too, I haven't started writing it yet, but so far I have two main story arcs planned, one I think you'll hate >_< but then the other you might quite like :P
And don't worry about any more angsty twists this part - there's just 3 more chapters to go!
Thank you for reading ♥
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Date: 2012-10-25 01:41 pm (UTC)>_< Rawwr then stick to the one I'll like!! lol after this roller coaster ride I don't think I'll be able to take much more of it x_x (i'll still end up reading though lol)
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Date: 2012-10-24 09:15 am (UTC)sugoi...sugoi...but then again I don't want to rejoice prematurely...knowing you...we'll still get lots of angst, ne?ne?
that aside, I totally love this chapter^_^junno has certainly redeemed his baka-ness in this one ^_^
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Date: 2012-10-25 01:22 pm (UTC)It was about time they got a final decision on whether they were going to be together or not >_< And I'm glad Johnny wasn't too strange in this. The trouble is he seems so mysterious and we don't hear much about his actions, but from what we do know he seems like he cares...or he cares about keeping his groups together if nothing else!
And I'm really happy Junno has redeemed himself for you :D He did get pretty dark >_< but I'm still working on getting him back to how he was!!
And don't worry about any more angst just yet ^__^ We're almost finished this part now (probably 3 more chapters) so there's only really time to get everything wrapped up. I do intend on writing part 4 though, so keep your eyes peeled for that if you're not sick of it yet :D
Thank you for reading!
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Date: 2012-10-24 05:06 pm (UTC)The rest are so understanding >__< Can I start looking forward to happy times as they mend back the broken fragments of their relationship? Although the cracks will always be there ;_; Somehow I feel that Uepi is more of the victim here.
Thanks for the update!
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Date: 2012-10-25 03:58 pm (UTC)Now there can be happy times for a little while as they mend things together again :D
I'm already planning part 4 and there will be some hurdles there too, but for a while at least I'll let JunDa be happy :D
Thank you for reading!!
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Date: 2012-10-24 05:47 pm (UTC)LOL at that, I really do believe something like that happened more than once in the agency! XD
Johnny is a great man! I'd love to know how his talk with the other three goes. ^^
And now to the important part:
FINALLY THEY ARE BACK TOGETHER!!!!!! \^o^/
*throws confetti*
Just... what about Junno's GF?
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Date: 2012-10-25 04:04 pm (UTC)And yay for JunDa being together...took long enough >_< ahhh...but yeah...hmmm, that gf of his >_< You won't have to wait long to see how that pans out, I've finished writing it now so everything is pretty much wrapped up :)
Thank you for reading!
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Date: 2012-10-26 04:47 pm (UTC)That's EXACTLY what I'm thinking! Hundreds of good looking teenagers piled together - noone can say there doesn't happen anything and honestly believe it!
Congrats for finishing! ^^ Have you already decided on what you'll write next? Part 4 or an entirely different story? ^^
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Date: 2012-10-26 11:55 pm (UTC)Thank you :D I'm really pleased I got it done. I've already started planning part 4, but I haven't started writing. I'm working on a few other things too, but I'll probably ask you guys in the next chapter or two if you have a preference as to what I post next. I'll still be writing the ones I'm not posting so it won't affect that :)
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Date: 2012-10-27 10:40 am (UTC)If you keep letting your readers decided, you might never be able to stop Baby Blue! ;D Whatever story will come next, I'm looking foward to it! Well, first and foremost I'm looking forward to today's chapter, though! ^^
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Date: 2012-10-27 12:34 pm (UTC)But I will have to end it somewhere >_< It would just get boring. I finished planning out the next part though...and I'd initially planned 5 parts, but then thought it was too many so I was going to try and squish it into 4, but after writing out the plans, it looks like there may be too much there for just one more part >_<
Eeek, it's Saturday isn't it? I'd better go get the next chapter sorted and posted then :)
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Date: 2012-10-27 01:21 pm (UTC)If you had five parts planned out, I'm really curious what ups and downs you will let them live through! Can I hope for lots of fluff and angst? ^^
Oh, are you someone who loses track of weekdays, too? ^^
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Date: 2012-10-27 03:37 pm (UTC)You should definitely try writing your ideas down though, it's not as though you have to write it all in one go so try not to be daunted by the length. I'd love to read them :)
There's two main hurdles I have planned for them left, and maybe they're getting a little...hmm, over the top maybe, or too dramatic, but I can't help it when I spend my time immersed in Japanese movies and dramas (only Japan could come up with something as dramatic as Koizora!). But yeah, look out for more angst and confusion and lots of ups and downs :D
I'm actually off work at the moment, that always makes me lose track of the days...it's to easy to just crawl out of bed and curl up on the sofa all day, the days start to merge into one >_
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Date: 2012-10-27 04:47 pm (UTC)I admire you for being able to write such a long fic! I day-dream too much, too (being scolded by teachers sounds familiar, although luckily most times they didn't notice), but I don't dare to write a multi chapter. I tend to get insecure with my English while writing and look up words I actually know way too often, so that kind of takes the fun away. :/
Well, those ideas were from back when I was in another fandom. I don't think I'll write those anymore, although there is one idea that never left my mind. Maybe I'll write it one day, because I really like the story. It's very dark, as you might imagine. ;)
Currently I'm writing a KT fanfiction, though. And it's not a dark one. I'm writing it down on paper first and I'll change things here and there when I'll copy it on computer. If that works out fine, maybe I'll stick to that method. ^^
Oooh, now you made me curious! Two main hurdles means one for part 4 and one for part 5? Somehow I could imagine one of them being Tatchan's family, lol. I'm looking forward to it! ^^
I know that feeling too good. Since last semester I had only one class, for more than half a year I had kind of lost track of time...
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Date: 2013-03-11 01:20 pm (UTC)i know you wouldnt make their way any easier, but at least they know and realized how their feeling are...
and i kinda found your explanation of akame is believable. i'm not really a fan, but if it' s this, i kinda believe it'd happen in real life....