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thesecretdoorPairing: JunDa
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 1083
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: All they wanted was each other, just to be together the way they once were. But now that they have it, is that still enough?
30th August 2013
After a few more weeks, Ueda found himself still without sex. He understood where Taguchi was coming from, but they'd been together again long enough, surely.
He found himself thinking about it again as Taguchi went down on him. He'd been hopeful that night when Taguchi had teasingly stripped every last piece of clothing from his body, but when the younger man had crawled down, shuffling his way between Ueda's legs, with only his own shirt removed, he knew it was too much to hope for.
He closed his eyes, leaning his head back as Taguchi sucked him down, pulling back up slowly, and then he gasped at the feeling of his tongue against the tip.
He wouldn't want to complain, a blow job is still something, but part of him needed more, craved it, and he didn't even care which way round they went, he just wanted something more intimate.
His hips bucked a little, pushing impatiently into the tight heat of Taguchi's lips, one hand knotting in this hair, squeezing tight as teeth grazed along the shaft, dragging a shudder from his body.
It wasn't just because Taguchi was so far away down there either, they'd done other things, touching with wanton hands, all but smothering each other with kisses as they thrust against each other, spilling together stickily between their rocking bodies. But it still wasn't enough.
He groaned louder, feeling his release nearing, and then gave an almost desperate whine as Taguchi slowed, dragging it on, drawing him slowly to the edge, driving him insane until he was a writhing mess. Only then, with Taguchi's name spilling from his lips between pleas did he speed up, knocking Ueda breathless with the force of the pleasure rocketing through him.
He could feel Taguchi swallowing around him as he tried to calm his desperate breaths, his nerves still alight with feeling, but even when Taguchi shuffled back up, laying beside him and rolling Ueda over to face him, kissing him tenderly, he still felt tense.
As Taguchi continued to kiss him, even as his body cooled, physically satisfied, inside he felt no relief. It wasn't just sexual tension, it was desperation to feel Taguchi close to him, it was that lost, broken feeling he'd been plagued with in their months apart. And to feel it now, when he was wrapped in the very arms he was yearning for was torture. He felt his body shaking with it, drowning him in the darkness of those lost moments, and before he could even think to control it, he was sobbing against Taguchi's lips.
When Taguchi broke away to look at him, he could only stare back, trying to convey his feelings through his pleading expression, but Taguchi seemed to understand “Ssshh, it's OK baby.” Taguchi whispered against his temple, placing a soft kiss there, and then he was being rolled onto his back, Taguchi rolling with him to hover over him. His expression was gentle, understanding, and he leaned down to press gentle kisses against his lips as he moved one hand down to unfasten his own jeans, pushing them down.
He got up only long enough to throw his clothes to the floor and reach for the lube from his drawer, and then he was back, covering Ueda's body with his own, kissing him through the gentle tremors as Ueda tried to control his breathing. Taguchi's hand roamed down as his kisses continued, pushing Ueda's leg gently to the side so that the hand could fit more easily between them, rubbing cold liquid against his entrance.
He gasped at the sensation, and another sob choked it's way out. “I know” Taguchi murmured, kissing him through the next gasp as a finger slid inside. “I don't want to hurt you.”
The words had Ueda trembling in anticipation, panting breathily against Taguchi's lips as he tried to push back against the intrusion, and then he was gasping as a second finger joined it, thrusting slowly.
He whined softly as the fingers brushed against his prostate, still sensitive from his previous orgasm, but he wouldn't have stopped his actions for the world.
The third finger was a little harder to take, since getting back together Taguchi had been so gentle with him, and so it had been months since he'd felt that stretched. Taguchi removed his fingers too soon, and yet it wasn't soon enough, he needed it, all of it, all of Taguchi and he refused to be held back by his body.
He met Taguchi's low groan with his own high pitched moan as Taguchi finally pushed inside, his hips jerking involuntarily at the feeling. And then Taguchi was pulling back out, pushing in slowly until he adjusted to the flesh inside him.
Once it was comfortable, Ueda nodded against the side of Taguchi's face, his hands coming up to wrap around Taguchi's shoulders, pulling him closer. He gasped at the feeling of Taguchi twitching inside of him, drawing out slowly and pushing back in hard.
It was perfect, the rhythm slow and hard, allowing him time to get used to the sensations, for them to turn to pleasure again, and then Taguchi was thrusting faster, more shallow as he leaned down to connect their lips, kissing deeply through moans.
Taguchi dragged Ueda's hand between them, wrapping it around his own erection and helping him to move it in time with the thrusts.
He felt his body tightening, dragging a moan from somewhere deep in Taguchi's chest, and then his hand sped up.
He could feel it building too fast, and his hips jerked with the rising pressure, his body spasming around Taguchi. Taguchi's hand released him suddenly, his body shuddering as he planted both hands on the bed, thrusting harder a final few times before crying out as his orgasm hit him.
The feelings and the sounds, and that look of raw pleasure on Taguchi's face was enough to push Ueda over, and with the next stroke of his hand he came hard between them.
Taguchi held himself up, panting just a few more moments and then he slipped out, rolling to lay beside Ueda again. “I love you” Taguchi panted.
And Ueda wiped his hand on the bedsheets as he rolled to face him “I love you too...thank you...”
Taguchi just laughed breathlessly “That was incredible.” and Ueda hummed his agreement, a smile spreading across his face as he snuggled his face into the crook of Taguchi's neck.
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Once again I'm stuck with writing this story, I have next weeks chapter written, but to be honest I don't really like it, I haven't decided yet whether I'll re-write it, or just leave it and push on towards the main arc of the story (which will hopefully inspire me to get writing it again). Damn I hate this writers block >_<
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Date: 2012-12-09 02:32 pm (UTC)I hope you'll get over your writer's block soon...i know that any direction you'll eventually choose would turn out great...ganbarre!
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Date: 2012-12-11 11:05 pm (UTC)Thank you for continuing to support me :) Hopefully I'll get chance to get some writing done this weekend :D
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Date: 2012-12-09 03:04 pm (UTC)'He felt his body shaking with it, drowning him in the darkness of those lost moments, and before he could even think to control it, he was sobbing against Taguchi's lips.' IDK but when this line came in I felt so sorry for them I was about to cry too and all I thought was "Please, don't use the baby word...not the baby word anything but...."
Taguchi seemed to understand “Ssshh, it's OK baby.â€
TwT that really released the water works for me but in a good way of course! >w< I love the fact that Ueda hardly had to say anything Junno just realized it was time. And the rest of the smut is hot as usual~ (whee for Ueda coming more than once xD)
And aww I hope you get out of the writers block soon, though I'm having no problem with these updates your giving us so far just to let you know ^^ As usual I'll be patiently waiting for the next chapter~ ^^
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Date: 2012-12-11 11:18 pm (UTC)Thank you for your support :D Hopefully I'll get some writing done this weekend, I'm just kind of stuck on the chapter or two before the first of the main story arcs starts >_< once I get to the main bit I think it'll be full steam ahead :D
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Date: 2012-12-09 03:04 pm (UTC)Hope you'll recover from your writer's block! If you're unsure about the next chapter, maybe take some more time to re-write it?
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Date: 2012-12-11 11:22 pm (UTC)Hopefully I'll have plenty of time on Saturday to get some writing done, so I might have a go at re-writing the next chapter, the problem is that I quite like the chapter, but I'm not sure if it's out of place/pointless >_< I'll figure something out before Sunday though :D
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Date: 2012-12-09 05:00 pm (UTC)I felt sad that he had to cry though... and I also felt a bit sadder knowing his true reason for wanting sex... *sighs*
These two really make me worry at times... they are so strong yet... fragile~
Happy Sunday, Dear XD
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Date: 2012-12-11 11:23 pm (UTC)Thank you for reading as always ♥
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Date: 2012-12-09 05:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-12-11 11:25 pm (UTC)It makes me really happy to see how supportive you guys are *squishes* Thank you for your lovely comment and I hope you had a nice day off :D
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Date: 2012-12-10 01:15 am (UTC)thanks for the update
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Date: 2012-12-11 11:26 pm (UTC)Thank you for reading and commenting!