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thesecretdoorPairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-15
Word Count: 1306
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: All they wanted was each other, just to be together the way they once were. But now that they have it, is that still enough?
3rd November 2013
The days that followed flew by in a blur, each of them filled from morning to night with adventure activity and intimacy.
They made the most of what little daylight there was each day, spending their time wandering around the quaint little village that was the closest civilisation to their remote cabin, or setting out in the small hours of the morning to drive to various points of interest. On their second day after arriving, they visited a national park, and Ueda experienced for the first time, real wilderness, rapid water, huge waterfalls, all manner of wildlife just meters from their tour party. The scenery was breath-taking, the hunger it ignited inside him even more so, and more than once he and Taguchi ducked away the first chance they got.
Their evenings and nights were filled with passion, plenty of the hot, sensual, burning passion that they felt for each other, but once their desires were sated, conversation flowed freely and just as passionately. They stayed up late into the night, reminiscing about their experiences, the dog-sled ride, the night spent out on the tundra with the dogs and the other tourists, sleeping under the brilliant lights in thick canvas tents, huddled up together for warmth. They reminisced about their experiences before all that, before Yukon, before the tour, the dark days they'd spent alone, sharing with each other for the first time in words how lonely they'd each felt.
Ueda felt closer to Taguchi than he ever had, than he'd ever thought he could, he'd always known Taguchi was someone he could talk to, to be honest with and open to, but never before had he allowed himself to become so emotionally exposed, naked, to another person.
But as dawn broke, almost halfway through their last full day in Yukon, Ueda felt sad. He found himself wanting to express his concerns to Taguchi, but in order to do that he needed to figure out for himself just what they were, what about the end of their trip was causing such unease for him.
He ran himself a bath, and climbed in, letting the hot water wash away all the anxiety, but it brought up in him a different kind of restlessness, a feeling of wasting what time they had in order to be close to each other, uninhibited.
Almost as though he could read his mind, Taguchi entered the bathroom just a few minutes after him. Without a word he stripped to his boxers and leant over Ueda, kissing him softly as his hands tugged and pushed at him, until Ueda was facing the wall, his back to Taguchi, then Taguchi retrieved the stool from in front of the dresser and came to sit behind him, his hands working at Ueda's shoulders to remove the last of the tension.
“What's on your mind?” Taguchi asked, almost airily, but Ueda could hear the concern behind it.
“Nothing.” Ueda lied easily.
“Uepi, you've been so tense the last few hours I'm starting to worry that your eyebrows will knit themselves together that way permanently.”
He hadn't even noticed that his features were so tense, but it was too late, and Taguchi only chuckled when he tried to force them to relax. “I don't know” he sighed eventually.
“Then just tell me how you feel. Right now, what are you feeling?”
“Happy.” Ueda answered, surprising even himself that it was the first word to come out. “Relaxed too, but at the same time I feel...I don't know...I guess scared maybe, or apprehensive.”
“What is there to be scared about?” Taguchi continued, his hands stilling only momentarily on Ueda's shoulders.
“I don't know...that's why it's so frustrating. This trip has been perfect...but I can't help feeling that something is going to happen, that when it's through something is going to change...”
Taguchi let out a small laugh “Change isn't always bad Tatsuya...”
“Then why do I feel so uneasy about it?”
Taguchi didn't answer right away, but when Ueda turned to face him, he smiled lightly. “Maybe you're worried because of the last time...last year when we went away for your birthday, it was perfect then too and then everything fell apart...”
Ueda considered that for a moment, then heaved a sigh and nodded “Yeah, maybe it's partly to do with that.”
Taguchi smiled. “Well there's no need to worry about that happening again right? We're together now, and we're in love and we're OK with that...”
“More than OK with that.” Ueda smiled back.
“More than OK with that” Taguchi agreed “and unless you're opposed to me falling even deeper in love with you, then I don't see what problems that could cause now.”
“I certainly don't have any problem with that” Ueda smirked, leaning forward to place a kiss on the tip of Taguchi's nose.
“Yeah? Then what would your reaction be?” Taguchi pushed lamely, his lips moving to meet Ueda's, pressing against them gently, chastely.
“Kiss you” Ueda murmured, already losing track of his thoughts as he fought to push his tongue through Taguchi's chuckling lips. “Get in here.”
Taguchi didn't protest when Ueda tugged harder on his shoulders, pulling him head first into the hot water, underwear and all, and straight over his own body.
“I love you” Taguchi panted against his lips, and Ueda froze, realising all at once what was wrong.
“Junno” he asked a little anxiously. “We won't drift apart once we get back right? We're both going to be busy with work again...we won't have this kind of time to be together...”
“We'll make time for each other. I lost you once, I'm not going to let you get away again.”
Ueda nodded in agreement, pulling Taguchi back into his mouth, only to be interrupted a few kisses later by a loud beeping outside the room. “What?” he asked in confusion.
“Dinner” Taguchi groaned. “I'm in the middle of preparing it.” He reluctantly pulled himself away and out of the water, wrapping a robe tightly around him before placing a gentle kiss on Ueda's head and leaving the room.
Ueda enjoyed the rest of his bath as much as he could alone, only getting out once Taguchi shouted that their food was almost ready.
He got out and dried off, heading back to the bedroom and pulling on a pair of dark jeans and a smart shirt. Taguchi was dressed in similar attire, dishing out vegetables onto plates at the dining table when he returned downstairs. Taguchi gave him a warm smile and ushered him into his seat before serving the rest of the meal, complete with wine, and then lit a few candles.
They talked lightly as they ate, the soft musical tinkling of the stereo behind them, the lights from the flickering candle interrupted only by the faint dancing colours sweeping in through the open curtains.
“Thank you.” Ueda whispered, his voice filled with the sincerity that he felt tightening in his chest. “Thank you for everything...I don't even know how I can repay you, you always do these sweet, dramatic, and utterly perfect, romantic things...and there's nothing I can do to make it up to you...”
“Just stay with me, that's all I want from you...” Taguchi answered seriously.
“Junno...” Ueda whined, but Taguchi cut him off with a shake of his head.
“I mean it, all I want is to be with you, for the rest of our lives.” He reached his hand somewhere down the side of the table, and returned it a moment later with a small, black, velvet box. He placed it on the table between them, nudging it towards Ueda.
“Junno..?” Ueda gasped, taking the box and opening it to reveal a ring, then he turned his face back up to Taguchi's for an explanation.
“Ueda Tatsuya...will you marry me?”
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I'm sorry it's been so long since the last update! I've already started on the next chapter though, so hopefully it won't be quite as long to wait for that one!
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Date: 2013-03-04 02:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-10 11:49 pm (UTC)I'm really glad I managed to start writing this again, I missed you guys too :D
Thank you for reading and for your comment as always!
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Date: 2013-03-04 05:42 am (UTC)Looking forward to the next chapter ^^
Thank you for sharing ^^
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Date: 2013-03-10 11:50 pm (UTC)Thank you for sticking with me despite the long gaps here and there!
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Date: 2013-03-04 05:52 am (UTC)Even though you breezed by quickly on what they did during the trip I still feel the fluffiness of it all >w< oh and AAAH! A bath scene! (and near bathsmex =w=) lol was that a hint for me to get that valentines fic finished?? =w= (it nearly is btw, just no penetration yet *cough*)
Ah but I like it that Ueda's instincts are strong here...the proposal must've been what he was all anxious about. And the fact that Junno knew so well just proves to show how close their bond is =)
Oh but that cliffhanger!! >w< Well okay I expected something like this would happen since their in Canada and all but something tells me this won't go down easily...they can't just go ahead and get married without Johnny's permission now can they? I hope Junno's thought this one through >_<
Either way I'll be looking forward the the next chap~! ^^ Good luck in writing it~! Ah this reminds me how much I miss this story...minus the angstyness of course but luckily this was all fluff for now ^^;; Thanks for sharing!! ^w^
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Date: 2013-03-11 12:01 am (UTC)Indeed Uepi's instincts are as good as your when it comes to sniffing out trouble :P The next chapter is up already and I think you may be a little cross at me :( but I'm excited to get the chapter after it posted, there's a line in there just for you that I think will make you forgive me :D
Anyways, I'm really glad that you're still enjoying the story (even with all the angst I throw at you) and I appreciate your support and your wonderful comments each time *squishes*
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Date: 2013-03-04 09:44 am (UTC)Somehow I can understand Ueda's anxiety, although I can't form it in words either. Like "It's too perfect, I have to pay for it" or something like that. But I hope that won't be the case, yet at the same time I totally do.
Me and my love for angst! XDThe proposal asfgdjhfjakkll!!!! Ueda, say YES!!! I wonder how the K-TN would react if they were told two of their bandmates are now engaged! XD
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Date: 2013-03-11 12:05 am (UTC)Haha, you get the idea perfectly, that's exactly what he's struggling to express, and of course since you know me...there certainly will be a price to pay for so many chapters of fluff :P (next chapter is up already - I hope you like it!)
Thank you for always reading and commenting :D It's a relief to have someone following the story that likes angst as much as you do!
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Date: 2013-03-04 04:07 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-11 12:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-04 05:10 pm (UTC)♥♥♥
My heart stopped there.
Thank you for updating despite your busy real life!
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Date: 2013-03-11 12:08 am (UTC)Posting may slow down again in a while, but right now I'm on a bit of a roll with writing so hopefully I can squeeze in some more time to write, I've really missed you guys ^__^
Thank you for reading and commenting!
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Date: 2013-03-05 06:15 am (UTC)I wonder how the others will react to this new development ^_^
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Date: 2013-03-11 12:09 am (UTC)Thank you so much for your lovely comment, and I appreciate you sticking with this story even through the huge gaps that there have been!
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Date: 2013-03-05 12:24 pm (UTC)welcome back sweetie
and thanks for the update
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Date: 2013-03-11 12:11 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-11 06:15 pm (UTC)missed you too
offcourse we do
its a great story =)
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Date: 2013-03-11 04:44 pm (UTC)I DON'T EVEN CARE IF IT'S JUST A FIC, I'M SO HAPPY!! OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!
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