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thesecretdoorPairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1152
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: All they wanted was each other, just to be together the way they once were. But now that they have it, is that still enough?
5th November 2013
He spent most of the plane ride sleeping, and some of it pretending to sleep just so that the silence between him and Taguchi wasn't so tense.
It was silent in the taxi too, though Ueda didn't protest when Taguchi slipped his hand across the seat to take hold of his own. He gave Taguchi a sad, almost apologetic smile, and Taguchi returned it, gripping his hand tighter.
“Do you want me to help you inside?” Taguchi asked when they arrived outside Ueda's apartment, but Ueda could feel that there was so much more behind the question, so much more that he wasn't ready to face yet.
“It's ok.” he smiled, shaking his head a little, and then he dragged his suitcase from the boot of the car.
“You're still coming tonight though right?” Taguchi asked a little concerned.
“Of course” he answered, pulling another smile onto his face “I'll see you at Koki's.” and he turned to pick up his bags, waving lightly to Taguchi as the taxi pulled away.
The dogs were excited to see him, Koki had been taking care of them while he was away but they'd clearly missed him. He occupied himself with playing with them for a little while, before heading to the kitchen to find something to eat.
He only had a snack since Koki would probably be having food at his little party, but he needed to do something to distract himself. After eating he went to his gym room to work out a little, and then by the time he'd showered it was time to leave.
It was just a small gathering, their group, a few of their juniors and a few of Koki's private friends, but it was enough people that Ueda had an excuse not to cling to Taguchi all night, after all, nobody outside the band was supposed to know about their relationship.
He had a pretty good time, considering the weight of the thoughts on his mind, Koki got lots of gifts which he adored as usual, they played with Koki's zoo of a pet collection, but then steadily, the number of guests started to decline, each of them dropping out to hit the town, or go home to rest.
“I should head off now too, got the dogs...” Ueda insisted once they were down to their own group again.
“Don't be silly Pomu, they'll be fine, stay for a few drinks.” Koki insisted.
“I'm tired...” Ueda pushed.
“You slept most of the way home Uepi...you can't possibly be tired.” Taguchi tried.
“Junno...please?” he hinted.
Taguchi shrugged “If that's what you want...I guess you don't want me to come with you...”
“Not tonight” he answered with a sigh. “I'll see you tomorrow...”
“Ok” Taguchi conceded “Sure. See you tomorrow.”
It was the same frosty atmosphere once he arrived at their meeting the next day, only this time Taguchi wasn't the only one giving him mournful stares.
“What are you playing at?” Kame hissed at him, dragging him into the hallway as they broke for lunch.
“What?” Ueda asked, only mildly surprised by the confrontation.
“Taguchi told us about what happened...”
Ueda rolled his eyes “How much did he tell you?”
“Well he was pretty reluctant to say anything at all actually, until he broke down in tears...Tacchan, he proposed and you said no!” Kame blurted out.
Ueda clenched his fists but let out a deep breath to cool his temper. “It's not like that...”
“Then what is it like?”
“Not like how it sounds...I don't want to break up with him or anything, but I just don't see the point in getting married when it's not even legal.”
“But you can still do it, in another country or something.”
“That's what he said but what's the point in that?”
“Because it's important to him...it should be important to you too...”
“Well it's not, and I don't see how it's any of your business anyway.” Ueda snapped with finality.
“How can you say that?” Kame almost hissed, his voice quieter but angrier. “I've always had your best interests at heart...I told you all along what would happen, and I stood by you when it did, I even convinced you to go after him at my own expense, at the expense of everything we’ve worked for so how dare you say it's none of my business...”
“I don't want to talk about this alright?” Ueda conceded, his energy leaving him with a puff of breath.
“Well at least talk to him about it OK? He feels like you're rejecting him.”
Ueda nodded “Yeah OK, I will talk to him.”
He headed back into the meeting room after Kame, and clearing his throat quietly turned to face Taguchi. “Junno, could I talk to you for a minute?”
Taguchi's face lit up, his head nodding harder than necessary as he scrambled from his seat and followed Ueda out of the room, Ueda lead him along the hallway to the first empty room he came across, and dragged him inside.
He shut the door behind Taguchi and then went to take a seat at the meeting room table.
“Uepi...what?” Taguchi started, his voice betraying his fear.
“I love you.” Ueda blurted out, turning his eyes up to Taguchi, still standing by the doorway. “You know that right?” Taguchi nodded silently, his expression scared “I'm sorry for the way I've been treating you, I was just surprised, and upset too, and I still haven't even worked everything out in my head, so I'm not ready to talk to you about this yet. All I can tell you right now is that I love you, and that I had an amazing trip with the past few days, and that I don't want this break us apart but I won't marry you, not until they allow it here.”
Taguchi nodded. “I appreciate that, I just don't understand...”
“I promise I will explain to you once I've straightened things out, but give me some time ok? Just until the end of the week?”
“As long as we can still see each other in the mean time...” Taguchi conceded, and Ueda nodded in return.
“Of course.” He got up from his chair and walked slowly over to Taguchi, taking both of his hands in his own “Tell me we're OK? Even if we just stay as we are, is this enough for you?”
Taguchi nodded, but Ueda could see the sadness in his eyes, the way they filled with water even as he smiled and nodded again. “I love you Uepi.”
He leaned forward to place a gentle kiss on Taguchi's nose, before resting his head down against Taguchi's shoulder. “Baby.” he pouted. “Tell me again, but call me baby.”
This time he could hear the smile in Taguchi's voice, could feel it on his lips as they pressed into his hair. “I love you baby.”
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Sorry I didn't manage to get it posted on Thursday like I'd hoped, it's been a pretty busy weekend! Anyways, I hope it was worth the wait for the little bit of fluff!
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Date: 2013-03-17 11:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-04-01 04:24 pm (UTC)Thank you for reading!
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Date: 2013-03-18 12:11 am (UTC)dont worry about it sweetie =)
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Date: 2013-04-01 04:25 pm (UTC)Thank you for reading!
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Date: 2013-03-18 12:20 am (UTC)arggghhhhh!is it pay back time or something? hahaha
as usual...you never fail to elicit a reaction from me ---may it be giggly fangirl, exuberant-flailing snoopy dances, or want-to-punch-a person-in-the-face due to frustration kind of emotion!^_^
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Date: 2013-04-01 04:26 pm (UTC)Thank you for continuing to read, and for your lovely comments!
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Date: 2013-03-18 12:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-04-01 04:30 pm (UTC)Thank you for all your support :D
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Date: 2013-03-18 04:38 am (UTC)To be honest I was getting a little annoyed at Uepi for being so distant after the trip especially after all Junno did for him. (and it's like the final hours of their trip was pretty much ruined ><)
But wheeee Kame to the rescue!! I'm glad he set Ueda straight! I'm still thinking he has some weird commitment issue or something or like he's against the idea that once they get married maybe overseas then word will get out and it'll just ruin the both of them...ah so many things to consider huh? So yeah it can't be as simple as that ><
But aw the last bit was fluffy, I hope they get to cuddle soon or something because they really need it TwT
'He leaned forward to place a gentle kiss on Taguchi's nose, before resting his head down against Taguchi's shoulder. “Baby.” he pouted. “Tell me again, but call me baby.”
This time he could hear the smile in Taguchi's voice, could feel it on his lips as they pressed into his hair. “I love you baby.”'
AWWWWWWWWWWWWW TwT Obviously my most favourite line of this entire part!! *w* He'll always be Junno's baby~~ >w<
Thanks for the update and yes it was really worth the wait for this last scene here~~ >w< I'm still AWWWW-ing over it <3 *huggles* I hope you had a good weekend and a great week ahead ^^
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Date: 2013-04-01 04:35 pm (UTC)And yeah, Ueda certainly does have his reasons...which I hope I managed to explain properly in the next chapter (which is up finally)
I thought you might be particularly upset about the angst all over again...so I thought I'd throw in a few extra 'baby's just for you ;)
Thank you for following this story :D
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Date: 2013-03-18 05:17 pm (UTC)Don't let Junno suffer in confusion and uncertainty any longer </3 It isn't fair to him! But thankfully the ending was fluffy ~ Thanks for updating!
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Date: 2013-04-01 04:37 pm (UTC)Thank you for always reading and commenting :D
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Date: 2013-03-18 11:50 pm (UTC)and I'm very happy I waited a bit because this fluff just made everything alright!
and the proposal was sweet, how the conversation just flowed into Junno's proposal to Uepi XD
and I get Uepi's reason for refusing... I mean, they are already living in secrecy and although they can get married elsewhere, without the world knowing just how much they love each other, it's like nothing changes per se... plus, I'm not the marrying type either so I can very much understand XD
and the make-up scene here was just too cute! and I love how this time K-TN rallied around Junno, it's like the tables have turned, it's great that they can all talk about it... they've really come a long way and that's progress... and now
... now I wonder what could be next for these two... Junno's proposal was like he still feels guilty about what had happened before and wanting to make up or maybe just prove to Uepi that this time he'll never let him go...
and then there's the uncertainty again... that feeling of everything is so perfect now that things are bound to go wrong ~ and the two poor things have reasons to believe so because well, that's just life... plus I'm still suspicious about that girl who actually knows about them... I really don't trust her >.<
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Date: 2013-04-01 04:44 pm (UTC)In an attempt to make up for it I did a double update today though :)
You seem to have a nose for sensing trouble...or maybe it's just that I'm too obvious, of course if things start to go well, I'll invent some angsty situation to keep them on their toes :D
Thank you for continuing to read and for your lovely comments!
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Date: 2013-03-19 04:11 pm (UTC)Can't wait for the next chapter *____*
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Date: 2013-04-01 04:48 pm (UTC)Sorry to keep you waiting for the next chapter, but the next two are up now and hopefully I've managed to explain Uepi's feelings a little better there!