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thesecretdoorPairing: JunDa
Rating: G
Word Count: 1083
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: They knew that moving forward would be hard, but with each hurdle the happiness they deserve seems further and further away.
A/N: It's been almost a year and a half since I posted chapter 2! For those that want to refresh here are Chapter 1 and Chapter 2. Hopefully things will go smoothly for the next few weeks - I have a few chapters ready to post so I'm hoping there shouldn't be too much delay between chapters! Other than that - Yay! Baby Blue is back!!
April 4th 2015
“So what was it you wanted to say earlier?” Taguchi asked, digging into the yakisoba he'd made them for dinner.
Ueda shook his head and pointed at the food in front of him “This is delicious”
“UeeeeePi.” Taguchi whined.
Ueda looked up at him, seeming to consider him for a moment, and then he sighed, putting down his chopsticks. “Junno...” he started tentatively. “I want to get married.” Time stood still, Taguchi's whole body frozen with it, his chopsticks floating in his hand, half way to his face while his mouth gaped open. “Junno...say something.”
He had to shake his head to dispel it “What? Why now?”
Ueda looked down at the table, fiddling with his chopsticks. “Maru...” he answered quietly.
Taguchi couldn't hold back his snort. “This is what you've been thinking of this whole time?”
Ueda nodded subtly. “I know...I hurt you so badly last year and I don't deserve a chance like this...but...seeing Maru...the way he is with those kids...how serious he is about that woman...Junno, I love you more than that...I owe you more than that.”
As bad as they say he is at reading the atmosphere, Taguchi could read between those lines well enough. “This is because I wanted to marry you?”
“My views haven't changed” Ueda answered honestly, his face lifting to glance almost guiltily at Taguchi. “I still don't see why marriage is important when it doesn't mean a thing here...but I can see that it's important to you...and that's important to me.”
Taguchi took a deep breath and held it, his eyes scanning Ueda's for any sign of uncertainty. “Do you mean it.”
“Junno...I want to give you anything and everything that I can...I want to marry you. And I want to live with you.”
He put his own chopsticks down. “Tatsuya...this is...I mean it's huge and yes, definitely yes...but...”
“But...” Ueda continued. “If we're going to do this then we have to do it properly, there's a lot that we need to discuss. Most importantly what to do about the agency...getting married and moving in together...there's no way we can keep under the radar they expect and do that...”
“Then what can we do? Would they give us permission?”
Ueda shrugged “We have to try, but we should think carefully about what we're going to do if they won't...we risked our jobs once to be together, and I'll do it again if it will make us happier together, but we have to be aware that it is a risk we'll have to take.”
Taguchi nodded thoughtfully, he had thought it through, before he'd even proposed to Ueda in the first place he'd thought about it and he knew that it was a risk, but to have Ueda's agreement, knowing that it was definitely going to happen made it that little bit scarier. “I'm happy with you, I love you and I love what we have but, this is serious...and I don't see how we can get any further in our relationship without taking this step. I want more...”
Ueda nodded silently. “We owe it to the other members to tell them first, but then we'll go together to see Johnny-san and ask for his blessing.”
April 5th 2015
“What?!” Koki exclaimed at Ueda's announcement, Maru just looked at them, eyes wide, and Kame rolled his with a snort.
“Seriously...after all that fuss before?”
“Well...yeah, I changed my mind...”
“It's Yuuchi's fault really.” Taguchi added when all eyes turn accusingly to Ueda.
“Huh?” Maru yelped as the attention turned to him instead.
“Uepi was inspired by how domesticated you've become.” Taguchi continued gleefully, until Ueda smacked him lightly around the head.
“It's not that...well, not really.” Ueda conceded. “It's more like I saw you trying your best for Mariko and the kids...even if there are things about the relationship that are difficult on you...and I was thinking that maybe I should have been more gracious with everything that happened...and it got me thinking about what's important...”
“Alright Romeo” Koki butted in. “So what now then?”
“What about Johnnys?”. It was Kame that asked the most important question.
“Kame...” Ueda started. “Wasn't it you that told me that if I loved him...loved him more than anything else in the world...”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah.” Kame replied with a sigh “So you're going to tell Johnny?”
It was Maru that squawked next “But...surely you don't think he'll let you get married?”
“There are loads of our sempai that are married...” Taguchi argued.
“Yeah but they're not married to each other...and they're not gay in case you hadn't noticed...gay marriage isn't even legal...” Maru countered.
“Then we don't include the marriage in the official statement, we just announce that we're together and moving in together...but we can't keep it from the agency.”
Koki was shaking his head “I don't know about this...I mean yeah I want the best for you both, you're both really important to me but what about the band...is moving in together important enough to you to risk it?”
They glanced at each other silently but it was Ueda that spoke, directing his words to Maru “Don't you want to get married...move in together and raise her kids as a family? What would you think if somebody told you that you couldn't...that you couldn't even hold her hand in public, or be seen spending time with her outside of your job?”
Maru wavered a little “Guys, I don't know what to say...I mean...I guess...”
“Do you love her?” Taguchi prodded. “Another two years from now, when you've been in love with her for as long as we've loved each other...if she wants to be with you can you really say 'No, I have to think of my career'? Could you be happy without more?”
Maru's eyes lowered and he sighed heavily. “I don't know what will happen two years from now...but, in theory I understand...”
“Then we'll all go together.” Kame suggested. “We'll show Johnny that we're together on this, maybe even threaten to disband if he doesn't at least let you try?”
“Kame.” Koki interrupted. “Don't get any stupid ideas...he could turn around and disband us just for the cheek of it.”
“You don't have to threaten anything...just...just give us your blessing...” Taguchi pleaded. “Koki, KAT-TUN means so much to us you know that...we wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't important to us...”
“Koki...they'd do it for any of us...” Maru chipped in and eventually Koki sighed.
“Fine...let's go see Johnny-san.”
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So chapter 3 is finally posted >_< I actualy hate these next few chapters but I don't think I can re-write them and that's what is slowing the posting process!
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Date: 2015-06-21 01:15 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2015-06-22 11:21 am (UTC)Ah I really lost count how many times i've reread the last two chapters but I will again *w*
And omg what's this...MARRIAGE? (ugh i really don't know how they'll pull through with this but the idea that Ueda's finally ok with it is already enough *w*)
" “I still don't see why marriage is important when it doesn't mean a thing here...but I can see that it's important to you...and that's important to me.”"
Ugh...UEPI T.T
So I take this that you'll be updating regularly now?? *w* Aah if so I can't wait but...when you say you hate the next few chapters...should I be worried? ._. you still need to warn me about these things because it's been awhile and I need to get readjusted to the sudden angst this series brings TwT
Ah again thank you for updating >w< despite what I say I really really look forward to more chapters
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Date: 2015-06-22 07:04 pm (UTC)There will be a little bit of angst in the coming chapters, but I hate them more because I feel like they're badly written than because of the story >_< They feel a little boring and like it's too much explanation. It's these next few chapters that have been holding me up though so I hope now I've made them into complete chapters at least, I can just forget about them and move on with the rest of the story!
I have the next few chapters ready to post so for the next few weeks at least I'll be back to posting a chapter a week! There may be slight delays after that but I promise it won't be another year!!
Really though, thank you so much for sticking with me through this!!