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thesecretdoorPairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1333
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: They knew that moving forward would be hard, but with each hurdle the happiness they deserve seems further and further away.
May 1st 2015
“So now for the hard part.” Ueda announced with a sigh, Taguchi was still laying on the hotel bed with his PSP in hand as he had been since they'd arrived two hours ago. It wasn't his fault - Ueda had been flittering about the hotel room for most of those two hours, insisting on little things he had to do before he got ready to take Taguchi to his parent’s house.
“Finally” Taguchi answered with an eye-roll, tossing the console to the side and getting to his feet, wrapping his arms around Ueda just as Ueda thought he might lose his nerve. “We'll be alright. How bad can it be?”
“You have no idea.” Ueda answered. In truth, Ueda had no idea himself, but his mother had always been a strict and old fashioned kind of lady and he just couldn't envision this going down well at all. Ueda's mother had always been unhappy at how naturally talented Ueda was when it came to music, she'd pushed him to be something more acceptable...a lawyer, maybe a doctor or an accountant. Ueda's father had always outwardly seemed to agree with her, but Ueda always got the sense that somehow he had something to do with his mother taking him to a Johnny's audition. His mother had stopped pushing him on his grades after that, but she never did seem proud of his career choice until he was bringing in more money than his dental assistant sister.
He smoothed down his jacket once again before pressing the buzzer of his parent's building, smoothing it down again once more in the time it took for the door to open. “Tatsuya.” his mother welcomed him, her hands cupping the sides of his face for a second as she gave him a smile that he couldn't return. “Come inside. Taguchi-kun, welcome, take a seat...”. Ueda followed his mother through to the living room, he let Taguchi pass him and watched as the younger man proceeded to perch himself on the edge of the sofa, his nerves starting to show.
Ueda's father greeted them from his usual place in the armchair by the window, his face much older and wearier than Ueda remembered it being. “Dad, how are you?”
“Oh, fine.” his father answered, his voice quiet but warm as it often was in the years in the years since his early retirement. “How is work? I haven't seen any news about KAT-TUN recently.”
“No.” Ueda agreed. “That's actually why we're here. There's something that I, we, need to tell you. Mum, you might want to sit down.”
His mother's face grew suddenly anxious and she shook her head slowly. “No, I think I'd rather stay here.” she answered, and Ueda nodded, though having her standing less than a metre to his right, while his father sat a safer distance away did nothing to help ease his nerves.
“OK.” Ueda started, wringing his hands together and then noticing, stuffing them into his pockets. “This is hard for me to tell you...but...for the past few years Taguchi and I have been dating.”
He looked back between his father and mother, at his father with his eyes widened in surprise, his mother with her hand clenched to her chest as though this is the awful news he's bringing her. “Oh my...you're...then you're gay?”. Just the way she said it was enough to make Ueda want to grab Taguchi's hand and run, just the look in her eyes said this was far worse than he could have anticipated.
His father choked at the mention of the word, but when Ueda turned back to him he looked down at the ground. “I don't think so, not entirely, but it doesn't make any difference whether I am or not, because I'm with Junno, and even though we never meant for it to happen we've fallen in love.”
His mother actually laughed this time, something high and squeaky, almost hysterical. When Ueda looked back at her, her face was torn with utter bewilderment “This is ridiculous. Tatsuya, it's...fornicating with another man...it's abhorrent.”
Taguchi was on his feet beside Ueda in a second, his expression shocked and angry. “There's nothing wrong with our relationship.”
“There's everything wrong with it.” Ueda's mother argued back, her own cheeks tinting red with either embarrassment or anger. “Put a stop to this nonsense before somebody finds out and ruins your careers over it.”
“That's why we're here.” Ueda interjected before Taguchi had chance to reply. “Believe me we didn't want to come here and have this conversation with you, but we're serious about each other. We're going public with our relationship.”
Two gasps were audible, but only one voice spoke up, the tone of it low and cold. “That's idiocy, what about your career?” His mother demanded, stepping that little bit closer.
“We'll leave that in the hands of the fans, we're putting a vote to the fan-club, they get to decide if they can accept us enough to support us through this”
The slap across his face didn't hurt half as much as the look in his mother's eyes. “How can you be so stupid, so selfish?” she asked him. Ueda didn't even know how to begin to respond, he had been selfish, but not in respect to her. “After all we've been through to support you, after everything we've done for you, and now you're throwing it all away for nothing?”
“It's not for nothing!” Ueda argued, pushing on despite the way his mother's eyes only grew more stony. “I love him.”
The second slap was harder and accompanied with a shrill gasp from his mother. “My son would never do this to me.”
Everything inside Ueda wanted to shout and scream back at her, to tell her that she's the one being selfish, but this had nothing to do with her, this was about him and Taguchi, and however hard the glare his mother fixed in Taguchi's direction, this wasn't his fault. “I'm sorry that you feel that way.” he answered calmly. “I don't expect that will change, but here are the details of our hotel if you change your mind, we'll be leaving in the morning.”
He had to take Taguchi's hand, literally tugging him into motion, Taguchi's disgusted expression still fixed on Ueda's mother as they turned to leave.
Ueda didn't speak, just continued walking, his pace fast and hard, his breathing heavy and quickening to keep up but he didn't say a word. He dropped Taguchi's hand before they entered the hotel, but his pace didn't falter as he charged straight past the reception desk and to the stairs, taking them two at a time.
Taguchi didn't speak either, not until they were safely behind the closed door of their hotel room, and that's where Taguchi pulled Ueda into his arms. “Baby, I'm so sorry.”
He was so angry, there was so much that he wanted to say, to shout, and that's when he noticed that Taguchi wasn't shouting, that the anger he'd seen bubbling in Taguchi's eyes ten minutes ago was gone, and then Taguchi reached out to stroke Ueda's cheeks and he knew why.
It was too late to hide his tears, he couldn't even say how long they'd been there, but he could feel their wet paths down his cheeks, feel the heaviness behind his eyes and nose, and sniffed hard as he tried to speak. “She's a bitch.”
“She is.” Taguchi agreed, pulling him into an embrace. “But it's not our fault if she can't understand. What we have is real...we know that...but before we go ahead with this, I need to know if you still want to, if it's still...if it's what you want?”
Ueda pulled back enough to look into Taguchi's face, his expression was as gentle as always but there was uncertainty in his eyes. “Why would I not want it?”
“Your family...” Taguchi started, but Ueda cut him off.
“You're my family.”
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Sorry for the over-dramatic reactions here. I felt bad even writing that stuff because I don't see why a parent would have any right to be angry/upset about their child's sexuality. Sadly, I know that it does happen, and that this kind of reaction is perfectly plausible, and I'm sorry but there just needed to be some angst already >_<
On another note, there could be a delay next week, next weeks chapter still needs finishing but I have a busy weekend and may not get it done. I'm off work the week following though, so I'll get caught up then and hopefully get myself ahead a bit again!!
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Date: 2015-08-02 01:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-08-02 06:21 pm (UTC)I'm glad you enjoyed it anyways :D
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Date: 2015-08-02 07:24 pm (UTC)Poor Uepi, I can tell that's what most strict mothers would react with and i don't know why I like how Junno handled everything. Now that both sides of the family know it'll be interesting to see how it all plays out from here (Oh! But Junno's brother and sister don't know yet huh?)
I absolutely love the last line by the way "You're my family." Awwww seriously I really hope they get the happiness they deserve after all of this T.T
Thanks for the update and I look forward to seeing the next part once you're done with it *w* *huggles*
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Date: 2015-08-05 05:07 am (UTC)I'm glad it wasn't too much angst for you, I'm not done with all that yet though (actually, this whole thing wasn't even meant to be the main story arc, I had something else planned but then this kinda dragged out a bit!! I'll have to see where it goes!)
*twiddles fingers* yeah, actually I forgot about the whole Taguchi's siblings part, I may have to edit in a few lines about it but unfortunately that may have to get glossed over a little, there's still so much left to happen!
As for if they'll get the happiness they deserve...you'll just have to wait and see :P
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Date: 2015-08-18 11:55 pm (UTC)Recently I started reading your LJ. I usually don't comment at all, just a silent reader. But I've read a few of your things of JunDa and then I went to the multichapter ...
Well, I read a lot of fanfics, but the first time I read fanfic, which makes me fear. The fear of a new chapter. This voltage, which the story keeps and emotions. I even took some time to remember that feeling of something like that .. And I was surprised by what I found - only books by Stephen King cause me such a feeling (and it prompted me to comment lol). It's not like something 'scary', It's something very deep that holds you.
I'm sorry, it can be confusing, but I don't want to say anything bad. It's the opposite. It's a compliment to your style of writing. I really like it.
As regards the story, I don't like so much angst! I usually throw such things, don't read to the end, or don't read at all. But as I said above, this fanfic is holding me. Moreover there are a lot of fluff, so.. Looking forward to the continuation and of course hope for a happy ending lol
And just to mention a reaction mother Uepi. Well, it's quite normal and real in life. Despite all the cries and scandals, few parents refuse their children just because of their sexual orientation. Of course it takes time to realize, as well as an outlet for emotions. But that's only natural, right? So I'm glad that you're using a lot of true emotions of people. Although I hope you will soften her attitude soon.
I am looking forward to the continuation :)
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Date: 2015-08-21 07:48 pm (UTC)Baby Blue was the first serious fanfic project I started and I'm amazed that people are still following it after all this time!! Especially when it dips in places, I know it does, so it's really nice to hear that people are still hanging on all the drama of the chapters!!
I'm sorry for all of the angst! When I started writing it it was meant to be angsty but in places it went a little too far >_< I just can't help it, I am trying to balance it out a little with the fluff and smut though so thank you for bearing with me through the tougher chapters!!
It's hard to know how to gauge reactions sometimes, in every country there are different levels of general acceptance and then obviously personal opinions on homosexuality too. It was pretty hard to write her that way because it's so far from my own views but I know that in many places and for many people this is how it is, worse even. Hopefully there will be an opportunity to soften her up a little in the coming chapters.
Speaking of coming chapters, I really wanted to have the next one posted last weekend but I've been terribly ill and just couldn't manage it, there'll be something before the end of this weekend for sure!
Anyway, thank you so much for leaving this comment. It always makes me happy to know that there are silent readers out there too and comments are always lovely, even if they're just one offs :)