[multi-part] It was the best of times...

[thesecretdoor]

Title: It was the best of times...
Pairing: Taiga x Hokuto
Rating/Warnings: PG-15
Word Count: 853
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: It was Bakaleya that started it, started everything, and they were the best days of Taiga's life.
A/N: I promised lady_aenea that I would write her something for her birthday. This is not that fic...but it is a fic that I wrote for her, for her birthday...because the fic I wanted to write her is taking too damn long. You can think of it as a kind of spiritual prequel to the fic that I promised I would write for her. My sincere apologies >_< I will get the other fic finished...but I wanted to write something so much better than this!

There’s no special reason it should be now, maybe it isn’t even just now, maybe it always has been, ever since...but for whatever reason, Taiga misses Hokuto. He’s sitting at the other side of the dressing room, it’s barely five metres away but Taiga misses him so much it feels like he could be on another continent. Hokuto fiddles with his pen, places it absent-mindedly between his lips as he turns to the back of his textbook to check something, and all Taiga can think is Bakaleya.

It was Bakaleya that started it, started everything. It’s where Taiga started smoking but that was the least of it. He can remember it all so clearly that it makes him shudder, his own pale spindly fingers reaching out to take the cigarette from Hokuto’s rough, tan ones and it wasn’t about the cigarette, it wasn’t even about trying to look cool, it was about touching to his lips something that had, moments before, been between Hokuto’s, whatever that was about.

It didn’t stop at cigarettes, not by a long shot, but that was always their excuse because Kouchi was too sensible and Jesse was too much of a good boy and Juri and Shintaro were still raw from brothers getting kicked out of the agency for rule breaking and illegal smoking. So it was just the two of them, and that’s how it started and didn’t stop, and they were the best days of Taiga’s life.

“Hokuto has really changed hasn’t he?” Juri muses. It breaks Taiga away from his thoughts and draws Hokuto’s attention from his textbook. “He used to be such a noisy kid but now he just sits in the dressing room reading.”

Hokuto laughs, it’s not a real one, not the like ones that Taiga misses. “It’s called studying you idiot. Do you know what that is?” It’s teasing, his tone light but they all hear the line being drawn. Hokuto gets like that sometimes, when they bug him while he’s studying, when they try to persuade him to go out with them on days off. When they ask him why he changed.

“Speaking of people changing...hasn’t Kyomoto changed the most?” it’s Jesse to the rescue, Hokuto’s rescue, not Taiga’s. “He used to be so sullen and moody when we first started Bakaleya.”

He’s tried all the excuses, he was shy, he was getting into character...he was really into Gokusen back then. Only Hokuto knows that Taiga’s outward hostility was just poorly disguised confusion, frustration at the internal struggle with his own uncertain sexuality.

Hokuto figured it out himself, back then, somewhere between the cigarettes and the awkward glances, and he was the one to make the first move. There was no confession, just warm lips that tasted like nicotine and a little like heaven, tasted like acceptance.

It started with kisses, but it didn’t stop with those either. Taiga received his first blow job in the stairwell of that studio, gave his first one in the bathrooms. He lost his innocence to Hokuto on that old battered sofa in the club room set a few short weeks later, when they snuck in after dark on the night before the last day of filming because who knew what would happen when it was done.

Then came the movie, and Taiga and Hokuto kissed and fucked like they were on borrowed time, all rushed and passionate, overflowing off the movie set, into Taiga’s bedroom, into staying for dinner with his family, into holding hands as Taiga walked him back to the station.

And then the movie finished, and Taiga had been welling up at the crank-up but Hokuto had held it together. He’d held it together the whole way back to Taiga’s house only to break down there, his words barely audible between sobs, words like ‘future’, and ‘uncertain’, and ‘end’. He meant the group, Taiga was sure, the Bakaleya boys, all six of them, but it didn’t really matter, all that mattered in that moment was the warmth of Hokuto’s body clinging to his, the tight grasp of his fingers in Taiga’s T-shirt and then the desperate, senseless passion with which Hokuto had kissed him and the way it had made Taiga’s heart pound like nothing before it.

It didn’t end after the movie finished filming, because there were still promotions and there were still the Summary performances that they’d been rehearsing back to back with the drama and movie recording. Taiga still got to stand at the front of the stage, Jesse beside him, Hokuto and Shintaro and Juri and Kouchi, surrounding them, united.

And Hokuto didn’t stop waiting for him after work, and they didn’t stop walking back to the train station together, sometimes taking the train back together to Taiga’s house, and they didn’t stop kissing like tomorrow might never come. And they didn’t stop smoking, because Taiga transferred to Horikoshi because of their schedules, and they still met on the roof between classes or when they both managed to sneak out of PE at the same time. And they were still the best days of his life.

Comments

[chained-akame.livejournal.com]

omg omg omg I didn't expect to get touched as much as I did *tears* You write about smoking, and kissing, and everything else and yet somehow it still has such such an innocent theme, and I'm getting such cute and nostalgic vibes *____*

I like the simplicity of the scenes you write, how you describe the relationship between the two of them slowly progressing, changing into something more, and how Taiga was already drawn to Hokuto <3 <3 And then the last day of filming, and Hokuto keeping a strong front until it was just the two of them *hugs the fic*

this was so beautiful and heart-warming, I'm definitely glad I got to read it <3

[lady-aenea.livejournal.com]

OMG
THIS IS SO....
GODS
I READ THIS IN THE MIDDLE OF MY BDAY PARTY AND I JUST CAN'T

I WILL WRITE A MORE COHERENT COMMENT TOMORROW BUT THIS WAS SO GOOD

GODS

SMOKE AND DESPERATE PASSION AND HOKUTAI

AND YOUR WORDS ARE SO PRETTY AND BITTERSWEET AND GODS THANK YOU

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

[lady-aenea.livejournal.com]

OMG
THIS IS SO....
GODS
I READ THIS IN THE MIDDLE OF MY BDAY PARTY AND I JUST CAN'T

I WILL WRITE A MORE COHERENT COMMENT TOMORROW BUT THIS WAS SO GOOD

GODS

SMOKE AND DESPERATE PASSION AND HOKUTAI

AND YOUR WORDS ARE SO PRETTY AND BITTERSWEET AND GODS THANK YOU

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

You had a party? :O I hope you had lots of fun and got lots of awesome presents :D:D

As I said, this really isn't what I was meant to be writing you >_< I'm working on this other thing and it's a lot angstier and I really hope you'll like it when I finally get around to finishing it - but I want to get as much realistic stuff in there as possible so I've been skimming so many old videos to try and make sure it's perfect but it took so long >_< This is kind of like the introduction to the other thing and I'm really happy you liked it!!!

Also...I blame you 100% for my recent smoking fixation...

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

Thank you for reading and for your lovely comment *__*

This is actually not the fic I was intending to write when I started on something for lady_aenea's birthday but that fic got far too complicated >_< So this is kinda the rushed introduction to that other fic and I really didn't like it all that much so I'm really glad you liked it :D I'm glad the progression of the relationship came across well enough :D I feel like this is a success at least!

[chained-akame.livejournal.com]

I'm beginning to think there's nothing from you I will dislike XD You have a very special writing style, the simplicity of your scenes that still give the reader many feelings is what I'm here for *___* It is definitely a success!

[dori-liv.livejournal.com]

I've been saving this for when I had a chance to read it. Earlier today someone posted Bakaleya drama and I commented on it because I'd been interested to watch it when it first aired but haven't yet and I thought, hey this is a good chance. Then now I decided to read this purely by chance and it was Bakaleya related xD Anyway,

Asdfghjkl this is so fucking amazing!!! I was completely blown away by it. It's so sweet and nostalgic and just asdfggghkll I am at a loss for words. I really don't know how to tell you how and why I love it but I do. Such a great tone and pace. I love it's 'simplicity'. I love every word of it. I just love the whole thing to bits and pieces asdfghjkl ❤❤

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

You haven't watched Bakaleya? :O You must watch it. If you like SixTONES then you absolutely must watch it >_< Out of more than a hundred dramas that I've seen Bakaleya is my absolute favourite...not because of the story (which is good but nothing special) but because of these six guys (and Takaki too). I love it so much ♥

Thank you for reading and commenting on this too :D It's kind of a rushed introduction to something else that I'm working on but I have so many Bakaleya feels that I wanted to write this part of it either way!! I'm really happy that you liked it!

[dori-liv.livejournal.com]

I'm still shocked when you say this is rushed and you don't like it because I genuinely love it.

I actually don't know Bakaleya boys at all xD A long time ago I was thinking I wanted to try and get to know some of the younger/newer je groups and I like dramas anyway so thats why I wanted to watch it. But it just never happened. Maybe now I can finally learn about SixTones xD

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

You definitely should get to know them. When I first watched Bakaleya I'd heard of most of them but wasn't familiar with them at all, I only watched it because of Takaki in a school uniform again and that it had Koki's little brother in it! But I really fell for them all in the drama, and they started getting more screen time on Shokura as a group and they sang so many old KAT-TUN songs and it was so fresh and yet nostalgic at the same time and I was just hooked (ok maybe obsessed is a more realistic word)...do let me know what you think of it if you watch it :D I'd love to know what you think/who you like >_

[dori-liv.livejournal.com]

wahh, I'm finally downloading it but realized the links for sophia_londons softsubs for episode 4-7 aren't working. Do you know of anyone else who subbed it or anywhere else I can find subs?

[thesecretdoor.livejournal.com]

Oh no >_< Did you try the folder of all subs together? It seems to be working for me but I did only try the mediafire links (I don't use minus). It's on the episode 12 post here: http://sophia-london.livejournal.com/13896.html Right down at the bottom there's a link to the full folder of subs and they're all on mediafire there...

If those still aren't working for you let me know and we'll sort something out ;) You really do need to see that drama!!

[dori-liv.livejournal.com]

omg I had that very page open and didn't even see that there! That'll teach me not to read the whole post! Thanks so much :D